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[triggerwarning][self harm] so some shit happened
11 years ago
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I'm going to post this here too because the shitter I feel about doing it the less likely it is to happen again any time soon.
It didn’t fix anything. I don’t know why I ever think it will. It never does.
I just wanted this crushing feeling to go away. I just wanted to sleep but it made it so much worse.
I feel disgusting.
I relapsed about ten minutes ago. To think I was doing alright too, but I really can’t say I’m surprised I am trash in the end.
What’s worse is I sent about 20 panicked text messages to my boyfriend and now I’m too scared to even pick up the phone to read his reply because he probably rightfully mad and hates me now or something.
I mean I did promise a ton of people I’d knock this shit off, but tbh he’s the only one I give a shit about keeping it to.
The worst part his I bet he isn’t even mad, just upset and worried. He’s always put up with my shit like a champ.
I just wanted to sleep.
In short, two days ago I relapsed.
Ick.
It didn’t fix anything. I don’t know why I ever think it will. It never does.
I just wanted this crushing feeling to go away. I just wanted to sleep but it made it so much worse.
I feel disgusting.
I relapsed about ten minutes ago. To think I was doing alright too, but I really can’t say I’m surprised I am trash in the end.
What’s worse is I sent about 20 panicked text messages to my boyfriend and now I’m too scared to even pick up the phone to read his reply because he probably rightfully mad and hates me now or something.
I mean I did promise a ton of people I’d knock this shit off, but tbh he’s the only one I give a shit about keeping it to.
The worst part his I bet he isn’t even mad, just upset and worried. He’s always put up with my shit like a champ.
I just wanted to sleep.
In short, two days ago I relapsed.
Ick.
