I can't sleep anymore..

I went to sleep at 12am and woke up at 2:455am wide awake

My arms and shoulders have been hurting for the past couple days, I'v been helping watching kids non-stop for a couple weeks now..

Haven't even been on the diet I wanted to start, haven't had to time to exercise or do anything besides take care of kids and draw a couple things.

Feel like I'm working myself into the ground currently, losing weight, getting headaches, body aches. Stupid FUCKing cramps that I'v had for the past 10 months now, almost 11.. Eyesight seems to be getting worse at times..

My grandma made it out of surgery, for which I'm so freaking grateful about, though she might have to stay another day for something

I'v mostly just ate anything I could get my hands on, small things mostly, some actual dinners, some pizza, and I'v weirdly enough.. lost weight? It might be stress related? but I don't know for sure..

I can feel exhaustion in my bones, and a headache building in my head.. but I can't sleep.

I'll try again later, but for now, I think I'll try and relax...