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Is Basically -> http://www.lovepanky.com/sensual-te.....th-another-man
At the age of 18 I jumped into a relationship with a guy that is 8 years older than me.
Don't know the exact reason behind, but it's something along the lines of "Everyone else had a BF and I finally found a guy and he's older! So I win" I guess my mindset wasn't the brightest back then. But what was even worse was I stayed with him for 7 1/2 years, I completely wasted my life just because I was scared to leave him for the longest time. I also cheated on him with 2 guys. But when I finally realized what he was doing I left and moved in back with my mom.
Here's even a bigger mistake I made, instead of providing myself any time to breathe, I jumped into another relationship, an online one, with someone 8 years younger with me this time. Lots of shit happened in the small amount we were together 1-2 months. During our period of 'waiting' and 'trying to figure things out' I met a guy. During this time my online ex and I weren't together but in a limbo of waiting. So this guy lived a couple hours away and we decided for him to come visit me, on Christmas none the less. We had sex, our first time meeting face to face. Told my ex that and of course he'd be upset, but it's not like we were together during that time, the only reason why I did what I did.
Basically after all that stupid crap I got with the guy I slept with on Christmas.
We've been together since January 2013 - So it's been a year and a half.
So I basically have been jumping from relationship to relationship to relationship with no time for myself in between.
I've only ever slept with 4 people.
My first ex, the 2 guys I cheated on him with and the guy im currently in.
My BF wants a strictly closed relationship, but I crave a little more than that because I haven't had time to actually experience life on my own. Is it wrong that I want to have sex with other people, but still be able to come to him at night?
He doesn't want an open relationship but I do just because I haven't had the time to do stuff.
He's had bunches of GF's and people he's slept with so he's had that experience, so he doesn't know what it's like to get your youth taken away from you for so long and not being able to experience all that.
Im 27 years of age.
When I turned 18 and got out of High school i basically was rushed to become an adult with my first ex that is 8 years older than me.
I never had the time to do what i wanted to do. Never had time to breathe because i keep jumping for one to another to another with literately no time inbetween.
So is it wrong that I crave/lust this desire to want to sleep with other people?
According to the article I linked above, no it's not, especially in my situation.
It's either go do what I wanna do and live out in the streets and give my cat away because I'll be living out of my vehicle.
Or stay with him and be completely numb to and about my feelings for wanting to try other things/people because he doesn't want to do that.
I want to be with him, but at the same time i want to be able to experience a little bit more in life, he said if I do this we are no longer together and wont ever be together, so what is a girl to do because not even my tarot cards can give me an answer i don't already know.
At the age of 18 I jumped into a relationship with a guy that is 8 years older than me.
Don't know the exact reason behind, but it's something along the lines of "Everyone else had a BF and I finally found a guy and he's older! So I win" I guess my mindset wasn't the brightest back then. But what was even worse was I stayed with him for 7 1/2 years, I completely wasted my life just because I was scared to leave him for the longest time. I also cheated on him with 2 guys. But when I finally realized what he was doing I left and moved in back with my mom.
Here's even a bigger mistake I made, instead of providing myself any time to breathe, I jumped into another relationship, an online one, with someone 8 years younger with me this time. Lots of shit happened in the small amount we were together 1-2 months. During our period of 'waiting' and 'trying to figure things out' I met a guy. During this time my online ex and I weren't together but in a limbo of waiting. So this guy lived a couple hours away and we decided for him to come visit me, on Christmas none the less. We had sex, our first time meeting face to face. Told my ex that and of course he'd be upset, but it's not like we were together during that time, the only reason why I did what I did.
Basically after all that stupid crap I got with the guy I slept with on Christmas.
We've been together since January 2013 - So it's been a year and a half.
So I basically have been jumping from relationship to relationship to relationship with no time for myself in between.
I've only ever slept with 4 people.
My first ex, the 2 guys I cheated on him with and the guy im currently in.
My BF wants a strictly closed relationship, but I crave a little more than that because I haven't had time to actually experience life on my own. Is it wrong that I want to have sex with other people, but still be able to come to him at night?
He doesn't want an open relationship but I do just because I haven't had the time to do stuff.
He's had bunches of GF's and people he's slept with so he's had that experience, so he doesn't know what it's like to get your youth taken away from you for so long and not being able to experience all that.
Im 27 years of age.
When I turned 18 and got out of High school i basically was rushed to become an adult with my first ex that is 8 years older than me.
I never had the time to do what i wanted to do. Never had time to breathe because i keep jumping for one to another to another with literately no time inbetween.
So is it wrong that I crave/lust this desire to want to sleep with other people?
According to the article I linked above, no it's not, especially in my situation.
It's either go do what I wanna do and live out in the streets and give my cat away because I'll be living out of my vehicle.
Or stay with him and be completely numb to and about my feelings for wanting to try other things/people because he doesn't want to do that.
I want to be with him, but at the same time i want to be able to experience a little bit more in life, he said if I do this we are no longer together and wont ever be together, so what is a girl to do because not even my tarot cards can give me an answer i don't already know.
That's my two cents on things. Whatever happens, I hope you can find what makes you happy.