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Feeling a bit depressed.
11 years ago
ScottishFurHi all again.
Sorry for another "I'm feeling sad journal" and you're probably tired of them. So if you're bored of this, sorry. I'm not doing this to get sympathy but more as self-expression; you should always show how you feel and never be silent.
I don't know why I've become down in the dumps to be honest
I've been in such an upbeat mood with a new writing out (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13866602/) and getting a new motivation to write again with no computer issues.
The only issues I'd say are the disappearing Skype contacts (http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5891355/) and also been trying to contact people who I used to talk to on my old FA accounts and a few just don't respond which I do find a little sad. And this has happened over the period of a few months, so its not that they've gone to Anthrocon being the only reason.
It got me started thinking about how I talk to people. Now I can be really odd sometimes, when I'm stressed and feel under pressure, such as being surrounded by people so close I can't move, being yelled at or just being really scared, I tend to act randomly and desperately, like a cornered animal. Its something I really don't want to happen but it just sort of bursts out.
It sometimes happens on FA and I feel really guilty because of it. Its usually when someone makes what looks like a negative comment, such as with a negative emote like these; and so on. It sometimes makes me think I've done something bad and I go into a sort of spiral of "Oh god I am a terrible person" thoughts
Aside from that I think I'm doing ok. I never go "Hey hotstuff, wanna feel my sausage." or anything creepy like that, no! That isn't how you meet people its creepy and nasty and shows you don't care about someone; you don't want to get to know them, all you want is a quick bunch of text of vapid lust that's not all fair on all RP's though and there are those that are nice and so on.
Additionally I can also be very energetic and fast when replying to comments. I'm a right old comment machine with over 23000 comments made at the time of making this journal
So I feel that sometimes I can swamp people with comments and can be a bit of a handful for some people.
I really enjoy getting and making comments. But I understand if me giving a reply every minute can be really fast :o
I really hope this depression lifts soon. Being sad isn't fun :o
Sorry for another "I'm feeling sad journal" and you're probably tired of them. So if you're bored of this, sorry. I'm not doing this to get sympathy but more as self-expression; you should always show how you feel and never be silent.
I don't know why I've become down in the dumps to be honest
I've been in such an upbeat mood with a new writing out (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13866602/) and getting a new motivation to write again with no computer issues.
The only issues I'd say are the disappearing Skype contacts (http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5891355/) and also been trying to contact people who I used to talk to on my old FA accounts and a few just don't respond which I do find a little sad. And this has happened over the period of a few months, so its not that they've gone to Anthrocon being the only reason.
It got me started thinking about how I talk to people. Now I can be really odd sometimes, when I'm stressed and feel under pressure, such as being surrounded by people so close I can't move, being yelled at or just being really scared, I tend to act randomly and desperately, like a cornered animal. Its something I really don't want to happen but it just sort of bursts out.
It sometimes happens on FA and I feel really guilty because of it. Its usually when someone makes what looks like a negative comment, such as with a negative emote like these; and so on. It sometimes makes me think I've done something bad and I go into a sort of spiral of "Oh god I am a terrible person" thoughts
Aside from that I think I'm doing ok. I never go "Hey hotstuff, wanna feel my sausage." or anything creepy like that, no! That isn't how you meet people its creepy and nasty and shows you don't care about someone; you don't want to get to know them, all you want is a quick bunch of text of vapid lust that's not all fair on all RP's though and there are those that are nice and so on.
Additionally I can also be very energetic and fast when replying to comments. I'm a right old comment machine with over 23000 comments made at the time of making this journal
So I feel that sometimes I can swamp people with comments and can be a bit of a handful for some people.
I really enjoy getting and making comments. But I understand if me giving a reply every minute can be really fast :o
I really hope this depression lifts soon. Being sad isn't fun :o
(98% of the time)
I guess the point is that some people have personality quirks that mess with them sometimes, but that in no manner means they are horrible people. You are a sensitive and very accepting person, which is great, though it seems sometimes this means you can be too hard on yourself. Chin up! Even if you can't get supported by those whom you are around physically, you always have plenty of people willing to make your day bright here.
I'm not high functioning autistic, I'm autistic but on a very low spectrum.
I know I can beat myself up a lot but I also still get sad by the people who don't respond, mostly because I'm trying to be friendly and I feel like I've made some mistake.
Though with some peeps I can definitely say I haven't made a mistake :o
but its very mild.
some were kind of not nice anyway; one was a TF snob who basically sniffs at anything that isn't transformation or anything without boobs. D:
I prefer something softer.
But obviously it's easy to say that and a lot harder to do that. In the meantime, I hope you feel better soon!
maybe after the last couple on which I looked at this new hype anime which is about monsters and things (its a piece of crud) and I might look at this other one the same company made which is just as desperate at commercializing itself its kind of scary actually
I might look it up.
I'm also thinking of looking at Final Fantasy; how it jumped from the brilliant No.6 to the not very entertaining no.13
I'm not in the mood and I wouldn't want to.