Ranting and Venting
11 years ago
Hey,
I'm kinda ordering these into bullet-points as they come to mind. I just need to vent and rant a little cause honestly I'm not in the best frame of mind right now.
- It's only a phase
I'm so bloody sick and tired of hearing this. Yes, I know she'll grow out of having a temper tantrum every afternoon when she should be napping cause she's so ridicously tired. Believe me, I am very much aware of that. However, telling me that 'it's only a phase' is not helpful in any situation. What would be very helpful would be making me a hot drink and letting me bitch and moan without getting all high and mighty (especially when one does not have kids and can't understand the feelings of post partum depression). In fact, what would be even more helpful would be doing anything on my daily list of jobs that I try get through every single day while juggling an ever demanding baby.
- I'm only one person
Yup. I'm only human and there is only one of me. I can only do so many things at once and only so many things in a day. During the day and what little time I get to myself, I like to spend part of it trying to do something for myself (even commission work counts at something for myself at this point) to try and keep my sanity. While it may sometimes be difficult to believe, my sanity really does come before doing the dishes, vaccuming the floor, folding the massive pile of washing, hanging out the washing, cooking dinner and any other number of things that would be appreciated if you could try and get done at some point, so I don't have to worry about it.
- I don't get days off
I have forgotten what a weekend is and so has my partner. We know we're parents. It is very hard to forget that when you can't remember the last two whole days off in row. In fact, I haven't even had a whole night away from the baby since she was born.
- Depression doesn't go away over night
I take medication for it. Yes it helps, but I still have bad days just like everyone else. Side comments about how 'it's not that bad' or 'just ignore her, she'll go to sleep eventually' do not help my mental state of being at all. Trust me, if I stop taking my medication I will quickly become the teary, yelling, emotional wreck of a monster I was before I started my meds. Nobody wants that to happen, least of all myself.
- Housework
I don't even want to get into that.
There's probably more, but I really should start cooking dinner (since it won't cook itself). I may delete this journal later. I don't know.
~Sunktokeca
I'm kinda ordering these into bullet-points as they come to mind. I just need to vent and rant a little cause honestly I'm not in the best frame of mind right now.
- It's only a phase
I'm so bloody sick and tired of hearing this. Yes, I know she'll grow out of having a temper tantrum every afternoon when she should be napping cause she's so ridicously tired. Believe me, I am very much aware of that. However, telling me that 'it's only a phase' is not helpful in any situation. What would be very helpful would be making me a hot drink and letting me bitch and moan without getting all high and mighty (especially when one does not have kids and can't understand the feelings of post partum depression). In fact, what would be even more helpful would be doing anything on my daily list of jobs that I try get through every single day while juggling an ever demanding baby.
- I'm only one person
Yup. I'm only human and there is only one of me. I can only do so many things at once and only so many things in a day. During the day and what little time I get to myself, I like to spend part of it trying to do something for myself (even commission work counts at something for myself at this point) to try and keep my sanity. While it may sometimes be difficult to believe, my sanity really does come before doing the dishes, vaccuming the floor, folding the massive pile of washing, hanging out the washing, cooking dinner and any other number of things that would be appreciated if you could try and get done at some point, so I don't have to worry about it.
- I don't get days off
I have forgotten what a weekend is and so has my partner. We know we're parents. It is very hard to forget that when you can't remember the last two whole days off in row. In fact, I haven't even had a whole night away from the baby since she was born.
- Depression doesn't go away over night
I take medication for it. Yes it helps, but I still have bad days just like everyone else. Side comments about how 'it's not that bad' or 'just ignore her, she'll go to sleep eventually' do not help my mental state of being at all. Trust me, if I stop taking my medication I will quickly become the teary, yelling, emotional wreck of a monster I was before I started my meds. Nobody wants that to happen, least of all myself.
- Housework
I don't even want to get into that.
There's probably more, but I really should start cooking dinner (since it won't cook itself). I may delete this journal later. I don't know.
~Sunktokeca
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I don't know how anyone copes with young children... I can't handle sleep deprivation! And I've seen my sister's kids throw tantrums when they are too tired. Yikes.
I guess being a parent is rewarding in the long run? I hope you feel better. *hug*