*waves* Ola fluffs. I am still alive no worries :P Sorry I haven't been to active or talkative lately. Dealing with stuffs.

My bro is doing alright for those curious. He's still a bit crazy or whatever for sure but either he's leveled off a lil bit or me and my mother are becoming immune to it heh but whatever. Progress is progress.

Since I am still helping keep their home a float as well as all my own bills n stuff I've actually been considering looking at buying a house for the 3 of us to live in... Now I'm very torn on this. First it would be a house with a finished basement apt. My mother is all for paying rent to a house I bought instead of a strangers and would be more then happy to take the basement where she would still live with my bro since he can't/won't/unable to work. Main problem for me obviously is that it feels like a step backwards, ya know living with family again though my mom promises it would be like 2 separate homes but ya know imma pessimist. I look at everything big picture though. I've helped my ma financially for many years. So much money I know I'll never see again and that's fine, I don't really care for money anyways and only ever buy myself what I need really. Besides I feel guilty spending money on myself when they struggle. A house where she could live much cheaper would change that. My mother and her 11 brothers and sisters were orphaned by age 12 and she grew up raising 2 kids on her own, no man no parents no money. She worked a lot and I pretty much raised myself. I just, I want her to be able to have the opportunity to do stuff or buy stuff before the end. I know of and have seen her struggle and it breaks my heart so since I was able to I do what I can to help. This thing with my brothers questionable mental health is just salt in the wound that is life. But I deal with it because there there really is no other option. I would never abandon my family to make my life easier. So yeah, I may buy a house for me, ma and my bro to live in. Heh It's not like I actually have a life to interfere with anyway.

Work has been an absolutely busy ass fucking nightmare since spring but surprisingly I'm totally cool with that. Keeping busy gives me less time to think and I think way to much. I can't help but play out scenario after scenario of "could be" things in my head all the time and most sadly aren't positive so I don't like thinking heh so I do what I can to always be distracted or busy.

Sculpting stuff has been a bit slower this year due to life stuff but it's picking back up again ^ ^ Currently I am just working on personal projects. I'll post a journal when I am ready to take on a commission again. I'm making great progress on the buff blacksmith Jafra and hes turning out super cool so that makes me happy. I see my last sculpture titled "poisoned Apple" didn't fair so well with peeps hehe I didn't expect it to being it was more art then furry or maybe it was the heart :P Whatever, I made it for myself anyway and I like it. It's a representation of how I've felt.

Love life.. lol right.

Feral is soon though ^ ^ something to look forward to. If your going lemme know. That is it for now I spose, now where is that rock I crawled out from *searches* laters