Sweetie the government should be there to help its people when they need it. I understand you are upset with yourself, but I want you to know that I don't mind my tax dollars going to help those who need it.

I am sorry to hear everything you're going through at the moment. I know it's not easy to live thinking you're worthkess ans suh, I've also posted a journal venting myself about this situation, I k ow it's not easy to do what people tells you to do because we all are different and something helps us and some other things.

I don't want to sound as all the people that come telling you everything will get better or such because sometimes it's not easy like that, I just wanna say that things happens for a reason and most pf the times we don't understand why, it just happens and it's our decision to decide what we do about it. Even me I forget about this and just break up in anger and tears, but I try to stand up and keep fighting everyday, try do something about what's happening in my life because I am the only one who can do that.

I know it's going to be hard, but living is hard, life isn't easy and it's normal having thoughts like giving uo because we all are humans, we are not perfect or so ething close to that, but the thing is not keep living with those kind of thoughts for too long because that's when it's wrong, keep living sirh negative comments is not good for oneself.

I just dunno...it's hard to talk about this subject, I hope I could help you and will keep wishing things get better for you.