OK so i'm feeling extremely anxious and kinda afraid now. I just had my AP physics midterm exam today and that did not help how im feeling, stoopid teacher gave a review sheet....almost all the stuff on the exam wasnt on the review so wtf.
But the majority of this feeling i think is due to the fact that the fact that life as i know it is about to end. Highschool will be done in a few months and then college. I'll be leaving my home and will be on my own and i still dont know where that will be....havent gotten any acceptence letter yet.
I think I may be on the verge of a mental breakdown because i think about things way too much and i drive myself crazy. I just feel like there isnt any time left and i dont know what to do, I feel like i have a million things I need to do but there really isnt. Worst of all is that i no longer can motivate myself to do things anymore, I just cant. What is there to make me want to do things that i dont have a natural drive to do?
ramble ramble ramble....... If you're actually reading this wow and I applaud you.
I just wish i could freeze time and sleep because there's another thing i can t seem to be motivated to do either apparently. I sleep, but not well. I am tired of being tired, I used to have lots of energy and was more productive but now i do whatever i can to get some form of energy just to function...
whatever..i'm done rambling and venting and ranting and whatever else im doing.