It's like.

My beloved is gonna see an acquaintance of his today after work.
(We're still not officially together after the break-up, even though we act like a couple most of the time still and we've talked and had arguments which all have proved that he really wants this to work and is working on it, and he's also told me that he wants to be with me. Just some BG info.)

He came home yesterday and straight off told me that he's gonna come later home tomorrow 'cause he's gonna see this girl. Okay, sure no biggie. He said he's gonna hang out with her for a couple of hours and thinks he'll be home by seven. Yeah sure, good you're not gonna spend the rest of the evening/night there.
He was in this panic/comic rage/comic frustration "mode"/"mood" and explained all the reasons why he did not wanna go and he didn't even know why he agreed to meet this girl. One major one of them was that the girl was just left by one of his friends and he was sure that this friend of his wouldn't like it if he found out.

So ehhhh.....
I know there's no reason to be jealous about something like that.

It's like....
I feel stupid for being jealous.
It kinda feels nice when he asked me if I'm jealous 'cause he tends to think that small jealousy is cute.
But it still makes me feel so fucking stupid and over-attached, I wanna cry.
And I don't even know why.
But I know I have no reason to be jealous 'cause of various reasons.

It's frustrating.
I hate being so jealous over almost every single one he meets or talks to.
But I also know it's only because we're not in an official relationship. It makes me so fucking unsure.

I want to change that in myself... But I have no idea how to.
It's so annoying. ;n;

Anyone ever feel/felt the same way?
Please tell me I'm not the only one. ;n;