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17 years ago
Shit shit shit shit shit shit FUCKING SHIT!
Sometimes, I just wanna disappear from existence, you know?
>.> I get these really depressing musing in my head sometimes and they're, of course, impossible to just IGNORE. Gods no, that would be too easy.
Why is the world so kind to some and so cruel to others?
What is it about people that makes them change into monsters completely unexpectedly?
Anywho, life seems to enjoy kicking the shit outta me week after week. I'm convinced one of my instructors hates me. Of course, it's my restaurant instructor, too, so I'm getting somewhat less than average grades in that class. And it's only the end of week 2 (of 10). Oh FUCKING joy.
Beyond that, it seems that everywhere I turn, I absolutely HAVE to be reminded that I'm the only person I know who doesn't have a boyfriend/soulmate/whatever. Every guy I get my sights on is either already taken, straight, or just uninterested >.>
Wanna know something funny? I've honestly considered becoming a drifter >.> Just kinda... disappearing into the woodwork, wandering the country...
Except I don't have a car or any spare cash >.> If I had a car, even just an old beater, and a couple hundred extra dollars, then I probably would do it. Just get in and go... not tell anyone, drop off the grid for a while, and show up somewhere completely new, where nobody would recognize me... It all sounds kinda romantic to me.
Well, I guess I just have to say "Fuck you, romantic dreams" and suffer through the real world as best I can.
Sorry, I just felt like bitching for a while. I don't feel much better, to be honest, but this does seem to help a little.
Sometimes, I just wanna disappear from existence, you know?
>.> I get these really depressing musing in my head sometimes and they're, of course, impossible to just IGNORE. Gods no, that would be too easy.
Why is the world so kind to some and so cruel to others?
What is it about people that makes them change into monsters completely unexpectedly?
Anywho, life seems to enjoy kicking the shit outta me week after week. I'm convinced one of my instructors hates me. Of course, it's my restaurant instructor, too, so I'm getting somewhat less than average grades in that class. And it's only the end of week 2 (of 10). Oh FUCKING joy.
Beyond that, it seems that everywhere I turn, I absolutely HAVE to be reminded that I'm the only person I know who doesn't have a boyfriend/soulmate/whatever. Every guy I get my sights on is either already taken, straight, or just uninterested >.>
Wanna know something funny? I've honestly considered becoming a drifter >.> Just kinda... disappearing into the woodwork, wandering the country...
Except I don't have a car or any spare cash >.> If I had a car, even just an old beater, and a couple hundred extra dollars, then I probably would do it. Just get in and go... not tell anyone, drop off the grid for a while, and show up somewhere completely new, where nobody would recognize me... It all sounds kinda romantic to me.
Well, I guess I just have to say "Fuck you, romantic dreams" and suffer through the real world as best I can.
Sorry, I just felt like bitching for a while. I don't feel much better, to be honest, but this does seem to help a little.
When things don't go their way?