My first day of class is the 19th of this month... aka in 8 days X( I'm really, really not looking forward to it. Honestly the only reason I'm even going to college at all is because otherwise my dad wouldn't give me any financial support... which in an area as expensive as the bay, and making pretty much minimum wage, I can't really live without. I've been offered a dog walking job by a friend that would apparently pay like double what I'm making now, but I can't take it unless I get a car.. and a driver's license lol. I have been learning how to drive, but the way my schedule is among other things is making it a very lengthy process.

More importantly, and unfortunately, once school starts I will probably not really have time for art, and especially probably won't have the energy for it :( I'm already going through quite a fit of artblock right now, and if I don't manage to draw something by next Tuesday I might not be able to draw for months. I hope it won't come to that, but being in school is going to be very challenging and draining. I'm not smart in the traditional sense, and I don't handle the artificial learning environments our society loves so much very well. I'm just praying I can actually motivate myself to do the work required... depression and lack of motivation nearly stopped me from graduating high school, and I'm scared that trend might continue or worsen.