I'm tired, I'm exhausted, I am unbelievably frustrated. I spend most of my days feeling pretty damn worthless with the exception of a few people.

I have been going non-stop since Friday. I have had little to no downtime to relax and cool down. I'm tired, I'm on my wit's end, I THOUGHT I'd get a day off today after 14 hours non-stop yesterday. But no, I wake up, sit down at the computer, and I'm getting called. That's step one of my frustration.

Step two is people that claim to love me who just completely ignore me. There's no plethora of excuses to NOT talk to me. Everything has to become a little competition because they don't understand how I am feeling. I really need people and some of them just want to kick me in the face despite caring. And god forbid you tell them that they're not doing something right, they instantly get hostile. I'm already depressed and hating myself, and I get "Lawl, you can dish it out but you can't take it." Fine, you want to be that way, be that way. No one is making you stay.

I'm tired of bending over backwards for everyone around me and struggling to get the only thing I want in return, friends and understanding. You want to wave it in my face that you have hundreds of friends? You want to get pissed off that I didn't comment on an adoptable that *I BOUGHT FOR YOU* that got 60 comments while shit I post rarely gets 20? Fine. There's the door. Use it.