First of all...this semester was...everything I expected and more somehow...I was taught by professionals. True professionals, some have been in Hollywood, and sci-fi fans may know my a few of my teachers, if they were into Star Trek stuff. It was such a honor to be taught by all of them. It was the most exciting experience I ever had. And ugh you know what? I wanna go back already, I'm not dreading September 3rd I look forward to it. Hell I can't wait for it.

So...my acting exam is what I wish to share. For my program the exam entails students performing something from one of our classes (profs decide) and they watch us. After our performance, there is a conference where all our professors talk to us about our progress, if they feel we should continue, give constructive criticisms etc. Now naturally for the conference I was mortified. Especially after some people came out crying and on probation. So when it was finally my turn...I took a deep breath and got ready for whatever they had to say. I just kept telling myself "Remember, even if it's hurtful, they're just telling you for your benefit as an actor and so you know if yes or no this is a career for you." So I sat down in that chair with a tissue box to my left, as all my professors and program coordinator were there staring at me. And the first to talk was my "The Actor's Body" Professor Nicky. Now I was this close to tears about her going first because according to literally everyone before me...SHE HAD NOTHING NICE TO SAY. Here is what she said to me:

"Ok first of all Anthony, you fucking blew me away with your scene today. Like it wasn't flicky, it was very not you, and your did your character so well. Like just....WOW I'm so impressed from how much you've grown. And I'm so proud to see what you can become, with all your potential right now. Your always such a joy to have in my class, your energy is so appreciated. Your movements are so beautiful, and I can tell you work hard. Now what I wanna say to you is, please take yoga, to calm down, and not because I want you to lose your energy, but because I want you to be able to play other characters, by finding your centre. Also your young...your the baby of the class, but that doesn't mean be afraid of being the man you know? and also, lastly, you need to be more self reliant, because you always ask "is it right? is it right?" while that's ok to ask, you also need to know that yourself, because we won't always be there to do that for you. But that's all, otherwise, I look forward to next semester with you."

So big shocker, she had...very little "mean" (criticisms to say, some people just find it hard to take, which I personally feel maybe they should leave...because it's only gonna get worse) to say to me. I was blushing red by this point. Next was my Voice professor Michael. He said:

"Yes your scene was uh very impressive I agree. And your Sonnet for my class, was beautiful, after you did the work and translated it and understood it, it was beautiful, because at first when you didn't understand it, which was interesting, it was hard, but once you saw how "that's my life" did it show through your performance, and it was beautiful, and as well you're always a joy to have in the class too."

It was nice to hear all compliments from him. next was my "Basic Acting" professor David. His class is the scene we had to do our exam on. So he saw me in rehearsal, he gave me direction etc. and he had this to say:

"Yea Anthony, I mean truly you took such a big leap today. Because I saw you through rehearsal, I saw how well of a place this was in, in the first place. Because I saw you play with your partner, I saw you know your lines, I saw all the work you put into it, I had expected today to see what I saw in rehearsal. BUT I DIDN'T which is what IMPRESSED me so much! You took such a leap, you were so in the character, you really connected with him, you didnt anticipate anything, you took my direction, and took out the things you didnt like, cuz you don't have to take it all which is fine, and it all worked, like you GREW from such an amazing rehearsal, and it was just so impressive to see that."

I came so close to crying won't even lie. Last but certainly not least was my favorite professor, my "Acting Inside the frame" professor Anita. I was most worried about what she was gonna say because lol I WANTED HER TO STAY THE FAVORITE XD. luckily she did because she had this to say:

"Yea Anthony...I mean like, your scene was really impressive, and what REALLY impressed me, was that I saw you do that scene WITHOUT PUSHING! So I know you can do it! and that was just so great to see you do! you were really dropped in, and etc. and also, I wanna say, it's wonderful to have you in my class, you have so much energy, and I see you hunger for knowledge, you ask all the right questions, it's so refreshing to have you as a student, because me as a teacher having that is nice knowing a student works that hard and really wants to learn from me. Plus you work hard, I see you work so hard which is great! You also have great access to your emotions, which is very beneficial to you because you're male. Now for you I want you to work on, not always worrying about being right, because as an actor it's gonna limit you. Because when you focus about being right as actors we tend to push to get that "right emotion" out, and we keep ourselves in this little box. And for scenes you need to prepare less, not NEVER prepare, but like don't over do it, because once you rehearse it in one way, you know and then your partner doesn't give you the reaction you want, and then you STAY in the reaction you over re-hearsed it's not gonna look good right? but overall that's all I feel you really need to work on."

So after all that...wonderful praise and things to work on I thanked all my professors, and gave a special one to Anita as I may not be seeing her again. But after I left...I just felt amazing...I mean true, just because I get A's in College and because my professors say I'm such a joy and they see so much promise doesn't mean I'll get any work or make it to Hollywood. BUT it does mean, that there is hope...and potential...for me...because I'm gonna work so hard to do this...i want this more than anything in the world. The fact I blew these professionals away made me feel so confident and excited and ready for what may come for me, because some of the people who went before me and got more harsh criticisms, and SOME OF THEM HAVE AGENTS, AND HAVE BEEN IN AUDITIONS AND ETC. and then there's FRESH OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL ME, AND EVEN THE "MEAN TEACHER" had very little BAD to say about me in my conference! I'm just so happy this all happened. I really hope I can grow and become something in this business...not even for money and fame...but because...heh heh...actually I won't share why. That's personal. I'll only tell ya if I love ya, and haven't told you already.

And to top off all this greatness, my professor actually posted our final marks for our scene....and i got an A+ :') which is a 90% - 100% in my College's eyes. I just never felt better, things could not be going better for me, and i can't wait for next semester!!!

Thank you all for reading this *bows* and to certain people reading this, who are my true friends, you know who you are. Thank you for your support. Without some of you I may not have done this. this is Azuri ending this journal...and here's hoping one day, you all get to see me on your T.V. or in a movie theatre or hey maybe even hear my voice on your T.V. possibilites are endless ^w^

Yours Truly,
- Azuri Foxcoon