I been sporadic but that's the joy of summer months.

We've been working our tobacco and the picking/curing process has started, we just continue crossing our fingers each time weather systems bring storms that what we've spent all summer growing won't be wiped out. They really don't do well with hail. Shreds it like tissue paper.

Wood has been spoken for by us, 10 bundles, 200 dollars, we've got to cut it and do some modifications to the property/house so we can store it. Last year sucked, having to go out to the shop every 4-6 hours to bring it in the house by arm-load.. This year we're going to change that up, building a proper wood wrack in the front porch so we'd only need to bring wood from the shop once a week, rather then multiple times a day.

House repairs need to get finished, changing out old bricks for new bricks and filling cracks and seams where parts fell out from age and weathering, tightening up the windows and changing out wood bordering. Then we get to bag them all and seal off the double basement doors to cut the draft. Old school house, these places are EXTREMELY drafty and weren't built with the intention that people live in them, but hey, it is what it is and it is home.

This is more or less a list of 'to do' crap for me... really.

First week of September I go to see about a surgery in the city, been fighting for this surgery for the past 2 years now and I may get stuck paying out of pocket for it in the end because I'm tired of their bureaucratic bullshit and will not be subjected to the embarrassing treatment of CAMH in Toronto ever again so I get it covered via government health care. As they say? Money talks, bullshit walks, this is true even in Canada when it comes to getting shit done medically.

Got a dentist appointment second week of September, then end of September I have to do an ultrasound for my liver.. yay.. A waste of tax payer's dollars doing that in all honesty... I'm fat, so of course my liver will be fatty. It's an EXTREMELY COMMON THING and my doc already knows this crap ANYWAY.. yet decided to have me set up a waste of time appointment for it. Swear they just want to pad their wallet as they get paid for all these appointments...

Then more blood work come October.. I'm REALLY sick and tired of being stabbed for blood. Like.. REALLY tired of it.

This summer alone I've probably had a total of 10 blood tests done, most back in June and early July.. and I'm getting real cranky now. Doesn't help they seem to think my hormone level is 'too high'.. yet the lower they keep taking it? The most annoyed, irritable I am becoming. You'd think that would be reverse considering I'm on Testosterone...

Art stuff is kinda.. slow. It's more of a 'when I feel like it' sort of thing. People may have noticed I've done a few things for Jakthedrox a week or so ago. A few things of my own as well.. as well as things people don't see at all. I made a texture set for a friend and holy god.. talk about frustrating. Muscle mesh bodies, GOOD LUCK trying to get scales to line up and not distort.. I tried it on separate layers for arms and lower legs and yeah.. It looked like total ballsac and I am not going to do crap work... so those layers ended up in the trash. The base body textures look really good however. May or may not post those on FA later..

Gamessss time, well, Warlords of Draenor is due out mid-November, that leaves 3 months of twiddling my thumbs I guess. Bored out of my tree with it as it stands currently, got into a raid, did great the one night then last night failed.. for some reason. Perhaps it's because every fucking time adds phase happened on Nazgrim, I KEPT BEING TARGETED BY ROGUES. I was told like.. stun, bash, etc etc from them.. dude, that shit would all be on CD because people took FOREVER to kill the Warshamans that spawned.. and I can only take 2 hits from these rogues... before -I- die. They just say 'oh don't turn your back to them!' well no shit Sherlock.. THEY STILL WILL KILL ME ANYWAY even facing them.. unless I go bear form and? Do no damage. Yep.

Oh but your ilvl is this and I know so and so who can do huge numbers in the same ilvl! Yes.. but you FORGET that SAME person has played said class/spec since the START over TEN years ago, I just picked it up this year? They also have their legendary quest done and would've LAST TIER.. so that means they WENT INTO the current tier.. WITH THOSE ITEMS that I do not yet have on that character... >>;

I swear, people don't.. stop and think. Blizzard tuned Siege around that legendary set AND broken OP warlocks (thus no nerfs to them and blizz confessed to it being so.)

I dunno, it kinda put me off, I got told 'stop thinking about what's holding you back, and think about what you can do to change it' well shit dude, I know what's holding me back. I lack the multri-strike trinkets as a balance druid, without my meta and poorly itemized gear, I also cannot reach the second haste break point which is DOUBLE what I got currently.. and the cloak too, huge dps increase, is just non-existent. OF COURSE my dps is gonna suck balls. I swear.. people who DO NOT know the class inside and out should just stick to the bloody role they fill. This person is just a tank. He's always been.. a tank, at best? He used to play a shadow priest.. but mainly, just a tank. Stick to it, please.

Perhaps it's a sign I should just stick to what I know best.. Elemental shaman, Feral cat druids, hunters and death knights and say fuck it. I would love to find a raid group of friends.. rather then strangers who think I should just shit out 350k dps with an ilvl of 552 on a balance druid without the gear setup for it.