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Well...
11 years ago
I've realized all I really do is complain in my journal. I'm sure people don't want to see it. I understand that totally. The reason I do it is to get it off my chest honestly. I don't care if people read it to be honest. I was never one to write diaries or anything like that. I feel better knowing maybe someone out there is reading my words. Anyway, I suppose onto the things Hannah wants to complain about today.
The thing I want to really talk about is my fibromyaliga. I have been suffering from it since junior year of High school. I got diagnosed formally with it in senior year. As years have progressed, it has gotten worse. I can not take any of the FDA approved drugs for it because they are all ones I am allergic to. The one medication I can take, my doctor refuses to prescribe.
I've been living off advil liquid gels but those don't cut it. I've noticed as of late it has manifested very painfully in my spine and knees. In fact the pain has been so bad I have wanted to cry. There are days I can't move at all without my mother's help. I have literally fallen to the ground from pain and unable to even do the simple task of making it to the bathroom. (My bathroom is literally cross adjacent to my room.)
Simple tasks such as washing my hair, brushing my teeth, combing my hair, even putting on clothes are all difficult. I just wish there was a cure for this disease, but sadly there is not. There are also doctors who still don't believe this illness exists, they call it a trash diagnosis when they can not find a real reason for your suffering.
Doctors need to realize this illness is real. I had a doctor who kept trying to say I was school phobic because he refused to believe in Fibromyalgia. For those who don't know what this illness is, it is chronic wide spread pain due to over active nerve endings. It is not a fun illness and it is not one I would wish on anyone.
Well my rant is done, if anyone took the time to read this, thanks I suppose. 
Poor baby.... I wish I could cure this for you...
My mother suffered from this disease for years.
Nothing helped, nothing made it better.
I don't have it, but I imagine it's a horrible disease.