So as you guys know ive not been around for awhile, oh with these suicidal thoughts and rapid depression taking over im as sunny as a fucking peach(disclaimer:yes ive had suicidal thoughts, but am I gonna kill myself for bullshit reasons..nope) as you can see ive fucked myself over once again. Im a bag of skin and bones with high hope for my future only to be crushed and fucked by a creepy guy on drugs. But im pulling myself togeather, and if your wondering yes im fine, no I dont need help, please focus on yourselves. I know ive been so frustrated not only making myself happy but also the people around me. As you know I could not attend FA:U this year due to dumbfucks ruining my family's bank account. BUT(I HAVE A BUT) im going to fricken highschool this year, im becoming more mature and need to heal myself. I need to stop acting like a child and fucking grow up. And everytime I come back here to FA my journal slots ARE FILLED!!! Its coming to a point were I need to unwatch people who I feel I dont have personal friendship with. Things are also easing up with my mother, as some of you know ive had problems with my family but things are better now and keep getting better. My mom loves the fandom she is actually wanting me to go to con and make new friends and such(and hopfully I can talk to her letting me get my hair dyed). But as of right now im kinda screwing up my life and trying to get it together but I promise ill be okay. So for now I bid you all adue and keep staying fancy my people.