as you might have known from my last journal, I took the ALS challenge for a friend of my moms, she might only be around for a week before she passes...
if that wasn't bad enough, my aunt now has Pancreatic Cancer...shes doing chemo now but from the first look at it, the chances are very low...alot of people I know right now are dying and the worst part is...Im the one picking up the pieces...

My mom constantly breaks down crying and everyone else whose lost or loosing some one is on my sholders, Im so busy trying to help them and my mom that I don't have time to weep myself, this happened with my grandmother, my other aunt, my ex-girlfriends nephew... and I'm just standing here watching everything, turn to dust.

I'm not asking anyone to feel bad, the only reason Im saying this is because if Im not heard from, if I dont make much art, or most of it is vent art, then you will understand why...
also first day of college started Thursday and resumes Monday, so that will be another reason why I wont be online much either...