always staying up to late then i start thinking of things about my boyfriend regular friends and life how will i get a job then how will i move good ways to save money getting rid / figuring out what i should keep seems like when im tiered my mind starts going all around i think im just making this to put most of the things in my mind to rest haha i dont know mostly just missing my mate in a very very bad way feels like yesteday he was here but its been to long and i want his warmth and his charm its hard dealing with a computer then on top of that i have a lot of things i want to talk to him about but he is pretty busy lately with collage and work and friend then that comes to well i need to move want to move closer to him or move into a place with him but i somtimes wonder if that will really happen he seems pretty rooted where he is at but so do i as well i think its only fair if we both move to a new state seems fair right ? any ways doubt anyone will care to read this but i should sleep will try not sure i can bye everybody for now