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Don't know what to say but. . . Meh
11 years ago
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I'm a failure and I want to commit suicide.
In my life I have done nothing but to disappoint and aggravate people,
either it being my Teachers, Father, or Family members.
I'm 17 years of age and have no skills, abilities, or talents.
I've never done anything that would make my life as a "Success"
but only have made situations worse for myself.
I simply am an Incompetent piece of shit with no self-esteem or care in the world.
I have fucked up my entire life; starting at the beginning of middle school.
I've dug myself so far into this hole that I feel trapped into the imprisonment that I have embodied myself into.
Reflecting on my social interactions and academic studies I've came to a conclusion that I'm a useless piece-of-shit
In which I contribute nothing to society worthwhile.
In Reflection, I've noticed that I do have it pretty well off and have family members that could baby my worthless piece of shit self
for the rest of my pathetic life; or theirs.
I'm pathetic, and I'm overwhelmed by how unbelievably stupid I am.
I've been pretending to be optimistic about things ever since 5th grade.
Pretending to be high-spirited and jolly around friends and family members.
and even to this day I do.
But, Deep down I know that I'm just destined to die alone in misery.
In short I'm a failure and I wish I where dead.
~Digitalized
In my life I have done nothing but to disappoint and aggravate people,
either it being my Teachers, Father, or Family members.
I'm 17 years of age and have no skills, abilities, or talents.
I've never done anything that would make my life as a "Success"
but only have made situations worse for myself.
I simply am an Incompetent piece of shit with no self-esteem or care in the world.
I have fucked up my entire life; starting at the beginning of middle school.
I've dug myself so far into this hole that I feel trapped into the imprisonment that I have embodied myself into.
Reflecting on my social interactions and academic studies I've came to a conclusion that I'm a useless piece-of-shit
In which I contribute nothing to society worthwhile.
In Reflection, I've noticed that I do have it pretty well off and have family members that could baby my worthless piece of shit self
for the rest of my pathetic life; or theirs.
I'm pathetic, and I'm overwhelmed by how unbelievably stupid I am.
I've been pretending to be optimistic about things ever since 5th grade.
Pretending to be high-spirited and jolly around friends and family members.
and even to this day I do.
But, Deep down I know that I'm just destined to die alone in misery.
In short I'm a failure and I wish I where dead.
~Digitalized
Don't EVER say that!
Don't think about it!
Keep your mind OFF OF IT!
WE LOVE YOU, believe it or not!
Don't EVER LET SUICIDE BE A SOLUTION TO ANYTHING!!!
JUST DO WHAT MAKES EVERYONE HAPPY! WHICH IS NOT DYING!
I'm trying to help
as I explained with my whole Reflection thing about Social Interaction and Academic standards I feel as if I'm not competent enough to actually contribute enough where I feel as if I'm actually worth-while.
I don't think I can achieve such things where I can actually live happily with myself.
I don't feel as if anything I do is worth anything (Which I think is a problem).
You have barely had any time at with which to even decide what kind of skills you want in life.
Again, you're 17.
Also real stupid worthless people don't actually realize how stupid and worthless they are.
It's a thing man.
Like Marvol said, shit isn't easy.
It's also not significantly easier for a majority of the world man.
Even if you discount all the starving nations, what do you think other people have that you don't?
Nobody was given shit that will make their lives any better.
Just because they are your family or teachers doesn't mean you have to listen to shit.
Or care.
Get a job. Spend all your spare time at that job and when you turn 18 leave.
You'll find friends at all of your jobs and live for that shit.
In the end, you have to make shit better. Force it to go the way you want.
And never post this crap again. It doesn't help you and sure as shit doesn't make anyone like you any more.
I don't know if you could relate to this, but I feel that I can't help as much as I want to.
Maybe it's just the way I was raised with the whole; give and receive happiness thing.
With everything shoved down our throats about feelings and emotions, it doesn't sound right, but..
Man up.
You can't feel good about today when you think about tomorrow.
I never honestly thought I would live as long as I have, and I'm. It even that old. When I was 17 I never thought I would have to live on my own. I also never thought, and still don't think I'll reach 30.
Shit happens though. Feel good about it instead of feeling bad.
But congrats on all your luck so far. (: <3
Work.
Then take care of your pops.
At the very least you can feel comfortable you did something good.
I'm glad