Back at school for my last semester of undergrad. Gotta say, I've barely gotten back and I can't wait to leave. This semester might have a few interesting classes, but it'll mostly be crappy gen eds. I'm hoping to make the most of the clubs this semester, like swing dance, ballroom, and fight club, but it's completely dependent on my mood.

This past summer has been one of the worst I've had. There were only 3 or 4 intermittent weeks that I wasn't in a generally negative mood, and they usually gave way to the worst I've ever felt. The first half I was frustrated all the time, the second half was feelings of loneliness and worthlessness. Had a few days I was so unhappy I didn't eat, or had a few crying spells. Working at the dog boarding kennels was terrible. Just too many dogs to manage, and frustration bubbled over to the point of cruelty. I'm so disappointed in myself that I couldn't handle my temper any better. Procrastinated way way too long on starting the vet school application, so now there's a lot of catch up I need to do. Barely done any coloring over the last few months, no motivation. On the plus side, I walked over 500 miles.

Started shadowing another vet clinic, and that was pretty fun. The vets are funny and make sure I learn something each visit, and I got to try a couple minor things like placing breathing tubes or placing vein catheters. Hope I can go back there for more opportunities.