If it's not one thing, it's another to her.. I swear.. Just.. ERM!

I was just bitched at by my mother because I drank all the orange juice.. Well excuse me! There have been plenty of times where she had drank a whole gallon of milk in two days.. And yet she turns around and bitches at me for the same thing she does!? What a damn hypocrite!

And I am just so sick and tired of hearing " Get a job ", " Why don't you get a job "

I am in college full time! No, I'm going to get a job! Not yet! Math class is stressing me out enough, if I had to get a job and keep up with College.. I would fail math again and I am NOT failing this time!

I can't balance things well.. I just can't.. I get too overwhelmed to where everything just shuts down and I can't focus or motivate myself to do anything.

I'm okay with doing art commissions, because I can relax while drawing and refresh myself on the weekends for another long stressful week.. I failed my math class once.. I am determined to pass this time and I have been working so hard, keeping my grade at 90%..

Just.. I'm sorry.. I just had to vent out..

Just so tired.. And annoyed.. And sick of my mother's shit.. Just wish she would shut up and leave me alone and stop making me feel like nothing.. She's always whispering under her breath harshly " Wish you would get your shit together "

I am trying! Why the hell do you think I'm going to school!!? *Curls up into a ball and lightly cries* I really am trying.. There is just so much I can do at once.. Math is my most difficult subject.. I need to put all my effort and energy into passing math..

Sorry that I am home more than you.. Sorry I don't eat like a little fucking bird like you want me too.. My friends taught me " if your hungry, than eat.. Don't starve yourself "

When I eat.. I get in trouble for doing so, but when I try starving myself.. I get yelled at anyway.. What the fuck do you want from me?!