At least to my perspective. No i won't post that freaken thing on my front page because it's actually worth it more to ask and talk to me, rather than just look at someones page and go 'hm maybe he'd like to rp something real quick'. I find that dumb really but it's what everyone else does so I ain't harping on them. Anyways, point of the matter, it just vanished with me. Not one person actually has the idea to ask that, if they wanted to, see if I wanted to rp. What's the worst I can say? If it's a no, then you can say you tried and maybe come back later and ask again if I'm willing to then. It ain't the end of the world.

I've been so bored these days because I can't go anywhere or do anything that I just sit in my room playing Smite, which I'm almost to League capability now thanks to all the damn gameplay I've been doing. More than I can say for LoL but, that's a different game. As for the stuff going on, a new car was gotten for now so while I'm in the hole for paying off my half for the car, really ABSOLUTELY nothing has happened that I consider new. People still rarely talk to me, even the close ones who consider me as a friend or other titles. I can get to work easier with the new car but that ain't new, that was just something that needed to happen no matter what. I've done little to nothing about my weight because not a damn single person cares enough to help me gain more so as I said stated before, I've kinda given up on it but I guess some small hope resides in me that someone may actually want to, but I doubt that. I've gone into heat I guess because lately with how much I've been around the three furries in this apartment and seeing more art online, I've been getting more... active I guess in my private need that since I won't ask those 3 for help, am pretty much screwed to getting anything of the like to help ebb this off.

Bottom line, I play Smite too damn much, I've still got a slight hope for gaining weight but since no one cares to help with that, I won't even bother asking and I'm in heat I guess but with little to no rp now I just tend to myself in my room by myself. Ain't my life grand?

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I loathe the fact on how I took it this far in life. Starting to consider if moving back to oklahoma is a better option.