Today I decided I was gonna go to an Anime club on campus. All of college so far I haven't been able to make any friends so I thought this might be my opportunity. So anyway, when I got to the building where the club was, they had already started and the doors were closed and I was too scared to walk in late, so I left. I wasted my time. I could have gone home at 2 but instead I waited on campus doing nothing productive until 6:30 (the time I thought the club started. It starts at 6 I guess). idk. I just wanted to cry so much. I hate living on campus.

I honestly don't think I will make friends on campus. I do have lots of friends off campus and all, but I really need to find someone on campus who I can hang out with, but it's so hard. Everyone always says "just make friends" but I can't. I just can't. It doesn't come as easy to me as it might to some other people. I can't even have a conversation with my roommate without feeling anxious. idk.

Sorry I've been ranting about this stuff so much on here and on twitter, but I just need to get it out somehow. Thanks to everyone who has been there for me.