***OK- Im going to try to breakdown this dream the best as I can.. its just an opinionative interpretation, others may wholeheartedly disagree.... Replys are in ***'s

THIS one started out with me going back to Georgia to visit my bestie kaytee-anne kaytee-anne and well something happened to our car right when I got to my hometown and it broke down. Well I for some odd reason I magically know how to drive in my dreams. So my boyfriend and I walked down the road to a familiar gas station to me... closet one to my house. Well on the way to the gas station someone steals my purse (I don't even have a purse) We chased him but we get away so we have no phone no money and no where to go.. Well, this black gentleman (I can't remember for the life of me who this was..) He offers to let us stay in his guest room.. At first we were skeptical and me being my paranoid self.. but he said not to worry that he has a wife and three kids. Finally we say yes only because it's getting dark. So the first night was normal, nothing happened. Finally I was reunited with kaytee-anne kaytee-anne as she was doing her morning jog. The man let us stay for a few more days.. only condition is that I would help his wife watch the kids. So a few days and nothing then the man went outside and she kept saying, "He is going to kill us.." She said it over and over again.. I remember I kept saying why..


***Look at how this compairs to your life.. your boyfriend is surrounding your every move in your dream... your trying to reac out to friends only to be stopped and stopped again, persistance pays off but the lady in your head is screaming for help, and you dont see the threat you only ask why, you ask for proof just as you do with your real life- you cant act on the feelings and concerns of others. Your in a house for days when all you were needing is a small car repair or to keep going to your friend the next day.. but for some reason you stay for days on end with someone who others (his wife and kids) fear will hurt them.. and maybe you. Kaytee ann is going about her life without you- a morning stroll while your broke down and searching for her.. does she know your searching? Does she know of your distress? You cant reach her it seems. Opting to just fall in while shes doing her thing instead of being welcomed.. thats usually an act of panic or uncareing.. because she is your friend Id say its an act of panic.***


She wouldn't answer.. I kept asking her and asking her but the next thing I know I have a big hand wrapped around my throat and struggled to get free as he slammed me against the wall. It was that man and he had what seems to be a knife in his other hand. He didn't say anything but stopped only because one of his kids were walking in the house. He told me not to move and I told his wife that we need to get out of here. She said if she left that he would kill her and the kids. That we should leave. I snuck away and went to find my boyfriend but no one else was around.. like everyone had disappeared.. no kids..my bestie wasn't around. Naturally I snooped around and only found the man cleaning the blood off his knife so I made a run for it.. it was clear to me that he killed everyone that was outside somehow.. I remember him firing at me with the pistol he had and a bullet went through my chest, as I laid there, I see his wife take her own life rather than to die my his hands.


***This is chilling. I find it coldly ironic that your boyfriend is never around when the black man is- sometimes when we dont see someone they are who is in front of us. Your being left alone and at a point of life or death... in your real life you are feeling very alone.. this mad hasnt killed you because someone else is around- but i dont feel its because the child matters to him. I think the wife not wanting to leave for fear of being hurt/killed resembles a part of your life and id not doubt that youve considered leaving even before this post about this nightmare- and havnt done so.. out of fear? out of desperate hope things get better? Why? Ask your own self why. you snoop around, you sneak about.. is that how your days are now? When your boyfriend is not around you hope to sneak about and do something hoping he dont know or find out? Your living your life afraid of someone knowing what you did? If your caught.. then the wrath of this person is on you? Someone taking their own life then to let another person do it.. to sit and be frozen due to fear and a feeling of a dreadful end... not feeling like you can run away or scream or get help. How trapped do you feel in your own real life? Do you feel your life is not one you have power to change or control? Your dream dont feel it can.***


THen I woke up...
Why do I keep having nightmares... this is why I am up til 6am everyone night because if I go to sleep before then.. I have these night terrors..I can only sleep once the suns starts to raise. I woke up at 4:20 AM hur derp.. and It's 5:33am as I am typing this part.. I didn't wake up my boyfriend and I want to cry. I saw downstairs and turned on the light to make sure no one was down here.. I kept seeing his shadow everywhere and felt like there was a hand around my throat as I woke up.. I couldn't breath (granted I have a sore thorat...not what you furs think.. god..)


***His shadow.. the black man.. the fear in your eyes just as in the blackman's wife... your living your dream is my feeling.. your padady of yourself and of those around you or who are close to you... your crying from your dream, and the tall tell sign of them all is that when you are scared and paniced you ran away from your boyfriend and didnt want him to even wakeup... this is you acting the way you feel you should instinctivly.. and not how a relationship would have done. If I had a girlfriend, Id want her to feel like she could wake me up immediatly and cling onto me for comfort in such a time. Your actions were very insinctive here to your surroundings and situation. And not what they should be, but modified out of what you really fear. Your boyfriend.***


I need advice on how to stop having these night terror.. normally they are about me getting sexual assualt or like this one and dying.. never had one that my boyfriend and my bestie had died in... I know it isn't stress but they are constant and they don't stop... I am legitly afraid to sleep now.. A lot of people told me that I should just go check myself in a mental hostipal.. or just not to sleep.. but I really don't know what to do anymore...

*sobs and curls up on the coach...*

***Your life is yours to control, dont let others control it- if you need help call someone, if a friend cant help, there are places for ladies to go who need to get away from relatives. I think you know what you need to do, others seemed to know it even before you. If you cant stand up, you need to get away from what cripples you until you can stand up. Do it.***