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A thought on trying
11 years ago
so i saw this artist post a reason why people should never give up on her art. she showed art she made 6 years ago.
In the past, i always gave up with i saw things like, "I been drawing for six years" or "i've been drawing since i was a teen". Sometimes, i would try to pick it up and what not, but i'd still get discouraged easily. its easy to get discouraged, though. At my age, everyone has kids and their life set. well, not everyone....but most people I know. Sometimes, you just wanna say, "well, i've failed in life."
I do that with my interpreting. i started school in 2009. I should be finished, but i was trying it from an area in tn where my degree does not exist. I moved to an area in mo where i could have a dorm room and all, but my tuition wasn't covered and I couldn't find a job in that town. I tried to move to knoxville, cause i was just like whatever i'll go to knoxville. I couldn't get myself to go to ut XD It's just not the program for me. I really tried on the whole applying to ut thing, but i couldn't get myself to finish the application. Just wasn't the program i wanted. People told me to go to maryville college, but i'm not christian and the cost is the same as ntid. I did apply to ntid, but i didn't finish the application. the main reason is i can't live in cold places cause of my lungs. Rochester is far more colder than tn. Out of the three schools that i felt were good for my education, california was the best option. I could live without the cyst in my chest acting up with cold weather. Then, i broke my ankle....now i'm back in the part of tn where i can't finish my degree. Sometimes it seems like an endless cycle where i'll never finish. most people i went to all those schools with are graduated. That's the most discouraging part. I could be finished by now.
Interpreting and art have their cycles to me. the difference, i guess, is Deaf community is more my passion than art. Art is more of an outlet. i'll probably always improve more in ASL and knowledge of Deaf than art because i'm so passionate about Deaf culture. Really it is based on what your passion is when it comes to how determined you are.
i know, i'm veering off. i do that.
The truth behind both is if you want to improve in anything...no matter what it is....you gotta keep trying and practicing. it doesn't matter how shitty you look and how bad you do, you gotta keep trying. you'll become better in time. My art MAY become better. I say may cause i dont' really practice it. i'm not as self concious, but i don't always feel like drawing, either. like right now, i'm playing a stupid game that means nothing to me and listening to an audio book. probably gonna watch dr who later. I know if i try an d keep trying then i'll get better with my art.
actually, thinking about that. i should probably spend so much time a day on both. Dual improvement!
okay imma stop babbling. abdominal pain :: curls up with a pillow ;; oh god. pregnancy.... bai!
In the past, i always gave up with i saw things like, "I been drawing for six years" or "i've been drawing since i was a teen". Sometimes, i would try to pick it up and what not, but i'd still get discouraged easily. its easy to get discouraged, though. At my age, everyone has kids and their life set. well, not everyone....but most people I know. Sometimes, you just wanna say, "well, i've failed in life."
I do that with my interpreting. i started school in 2009. I should be finished, but i was trying it from an area in tn where my degree does not exist. I moved to an area in mo where i could have a dorm room and all, but my tuition wasn't covered and I couldn't find a job in that town. I tried to move to knoxville, cause i was just like whatever i'll go to knoxville. I couldn't get myself to go to ut XD It's just not the program for me. I really tried on the whole applying to ut thing, but i couldn't get myself to finish the application. Just wasn't the program i wanted. People told me to go to maryville college, but i'm not christian and the cost is the same as ntid. I did apply to ntid, but i didn't finish the application. the main reason is i can't live in cold places cause of my lungs. Rochester is far more colder than tn. Out of the three schools that i felt were good for my education, california was the best option. I could live without the cyst in my chest acting up with cold weather. Then, i broke my ankle....now i'm back in the part of tn where i can't finish my degree. Sometimes it seems like an endless cycle where i'll never finish. most people i went to all those schools with are graduated. That's the most discouraging part. I could be finished by now.
Interpreting and art have their cycles to me. the difference, i guess, is Deaf community is more my passion than art. Art is more of an outlet. i'll probably always improve more in ASL and knowledge of Deaf than art because i'm so passionate about Deaf culture. Really it is based on what your passion is when it comes to how determined you are.
i know, i'm veering off. i do that.
The truth behind both is if you want to improve in anything...no matter what it is....you gotta keep trying and practicing. it doesn't matter how shitty you look and how bad you do, you gotta keep trying. you'll become better in time. My art MAY become better. I say may cause i dont' really practice it. i'm not as self concious, but i don't always feel like drawing, either. like right now, i'm playing a stupid game that means nothing to me and listening to an audio book. probably gonna watch dr who later. I know if i try an d keep trying then i'll get better with my art.
actually, thinking about that. i should probably spend so much time a day on both. Dual improvement!
okay imma stop babbling. abdominal pain :: curls up with a pillow ;; oh god. pregnancy.... bai!
