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good days and bad days
11 years ago
"Do you know what those who underestimate tigers always say?" (slight vent just to have it written down. dont pay to much attention to it)
we all have both. when i find some one i know having a bad day i make it my goal to make them smile. just a little frosting on the shitty cupcake of the day they are having. it normally doesnt take much. just and ear and a bit of silliness. this has always brought joy to me.
eventually i too need a little bit of frosting to lighten my day up. it doesnt take much either. in the past i had a companion that shouldered this burden and she was very good at it. so good that i didnt realize how alone i had become. but it didnt mater cause i had my one bit of happiness.
its been a year and a half since ive held some one and watched a movie together. and almost a year since ive said "i love you". ive managed as we all must from time to time. recent events in keeping me and my family with a roof over their head has drained my savings to almost nothing. i turn around and wait for the support of my former constant. and get ignored for a week at a time. my life consists of working for no apparent goals then sitting at home with no one to talk to or even play games with. then sleeping and doing it all over again.
i now have a steady job with fixed off days. but nothing to do on the off days. a steady income but no one to have fun with or visit. on top of this im fearful my injury is perminant. i still cant stand for more then 10 minuts or walk long distances. hell i havent even tried to run in almost 3 months. this near constant pain has gone way past the point of "im over this!"
to many down journals. i promis the next one will be happy. *curls up in bed* itll have frosting. maybe even bacon... or a hug. id settle for a hug.
we all have both. when i find some one i know having a bad day i make it my goal to make them smile. just a little frosting on the shitty cupcake of the day they are having. it normally doesnt take much. just and ear and a bit of silliness. this has always brought joy to me.
eventually i too need a little bit of frosting to lighten my day up. it doesnt take much either. in the past i had a companion that shouldered this burden and she was very good at it. so good that i didnt realize how alone i had become. but it didnt mater cause i had my one bit of happiness.
its been a year and a half since ive held some one and watched a movie together. and almost a year since ive said "i love you". ive managed as we all must from time to time. recent events in keeping me and my family with a roof over their head has drained my savings to almost nothing. i turn around and wait for the support of my former constant. and get ignored for a week at a time. my life consists of working for no apparent goals then sitting at home with no one to talk to or even play games with. then sleeping and doing it all over again.
i now have a steady job with fixed off days. but nothing to do on the off days. a steady income but no one to have fun with or visit. on top of this im fearful my injury is perminant. i still cant stand for more then 10 minuts or walk long distances. hell i havent even tried to run in almost 3 months. this near constant pain has gone way past the point of "im over this!"
to many down journals. i promis the next one will be happy. *curls up in bed* itll have frosting. maybe even bacon... or a hug. id settle for a hug.
I dont do multiplayer games, so my steam probably wouldnt help. Xp