When I started nikvulper in 2009, I had just finished working on the second year of Furry Connection North. Everything was going pretty well at the time, and I was having fun doing something cool for the fandom. Unfortunately as the years went on, I ended up shouldering more responsibility as the event continued to grow. I was left with no time to prepare for things I wanted to do on stage, I got way too busy to podcast, I had hardly any time to enjoy the con as it was going on.

With the convention taking up all my furry time, and a friends list made up of more and more convention staff relations, I started hiding away the "kinky" stuff that makes furry fun for me. I wrote and deleted so many tweets because I was afraid of squicking someone and making my convention duties even more daunting. It was irrational, but that's where my head was at because of the stress.

In the year since FCN shut down, I've had time to realize how much things changed for me because of the con. When stressed out over things I couldn't control, unfollowing someone on Twitter was often a quick fix to feel like I repaired something, but it didn't help in the long run. It just pushed away the enjoyable side of things and made me focus more on what stressed me out. I need to reboot this situation, and the new account is what I'm going to try.

nikvulper is going to go private for boring real life stuff. foxthatneverwas will be for catching up with old friends, meeting new people, and trying to become a fan of furry again. Instead of worrying about whether or not people are following me back, I'm just going to follow accounts that I find interesting. I'm going to make role-play poses back and forth with people that are interested. It's going to be a place for me to get back to the roots of this character, something I created to have fun with.

If I'm new to you, hi! I'm usually online 8-4 on M-F, evening and weekend availability is sporadic. I enjoy a good role play, when my work day is slow, which is most of the time. My interests should be pretty clear from my gallery. I also enjoy talking about cooking, baking, gardening, and old school video games amongst other things. I'm seldomly interested in new video game news, brand war fanboying, politics or drama. Ain't nobody got time for that.

If I'm old to you, hi! Apologies for unfollowing you. I took the easy way out like a wimp, but at least I'll admit it. After being the e-mail contact tasked with explaining and re-explaining rules and policies to problematic convention attendees, I lost the part of me that could talk calmly with people about behavior that bugged me. I also treated Twitter a lot like LiveJournal in that I worried about follower counts and felt like I had to read everything, so I'd end up dropping people if they dominated my timeline. I do hope we can reconnect.

If you're an artist, hi! I think your work is neat, but I don't comment very often, usually feel lost in a sea of replies when I do. Even though I've been in the fandom for almost half of my life now, I still don't feel very confident around artists. I've made a fool of myself in the past trying to be friends with some, when I really didn't fit in with their social circle. That's one mistake I really don't care to repeat. However if you open up for commissions, I might through some cash you way, because your art is awesome.

Thanks for reading, feel free to reply here or @ me on Twitter with any further questions!