The Internet
17 years ago
General
All these people that are your life.
All these people that you cannot touch or know.
It's like an arm that was taken away from you.
It's a phantom limb that never lost it's feeling,
that'll never be there when you need it most.
It's not real.
Not really poetry... not really emo.
--just thoughts I'm too lazy to figure out how to draw out. Kind of a window into how my thought processes go when I'm kept up at night with "inspiration". Feels good to "see it on paper" though.
All these people that you cannot touch or know.
It's like an arm that was taken away from you.
It's a phantom limb that never lost it's feeling,
that'll never be there when you need it most.
It's not real.
Not really poetry... not really emo.
--just thoughts I'm too lazy to figure out how to draw out. Kind of a window into how my thought processes go when I'm kept up at night with "inspiration". Feels good to "see it on paper" though.
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It is poetry, just freestyle. ;)
I kinda have a whole folder filled with stupid thoughts like this. And, that's what this is... personal thoughts and revelations that I might save for later.
I just shared this one becuase I thought people could relate. About the pros and cons to any sort of online friendship/relationship, which can be the some of the most fullfilling yet utterly stunted relationship imaginable.
But, friendships are a pain for me now, too. I dunno how to really say it without sounding bad, but all the people I feel I connect with the most are online. The ones that care about me the most and I care about. When I got off my deployment, it seemed like all my real life "friends" weren't going anywhere and were dragging me down with them. Then again, who's to say any of my online friends wouldn't do that too, I haven't actually lived with them.
Friendships online are kinda similar I think, where you don't really know the person because you don't "hang out" with them daily... unless you are just addicted to the internet, ha ha. There will be days when I won't open my laptop, and I think that's why I can no longer keep consistent online friends like I used to. And the same thing happened to me once I started going to college, all my other friends drifted off and did their own thing, and I felt torn as to whether I should start doing the same as well. Problem for me, is that everyone I see (online/off) puts a bit of weight on my decisions... if they seem totally happy in what they are doing, it makes me want to follow their path, in terms of art college and etc. Ah, I'd have to explain to you over AIM or some shit, I have a short attention span suddenly wugh.