This is way too much in such a short span of time. I don't know what to do. Arya is hardly eating and drinking she used to happily drink all her medicine mixed in ensure but now only takes a couple licks then refuses to drink anymore. I put her in the hospital cage so I can keep it cleaner and keep her near us. She isn't even drinking.
I don't think she has much longer and I'm not ready to lose her.

Reed started showing signs of respiratory distress not long after Coffee passed away and he looked extremely depressed. I think his brother being gone stressed him out. He is responding well to the medicine though.

I'm freaking out, I want to just lay in a corner and just cry until I can't anymore. I don't know what to do to make the pain easier. I don't handle death well
We buried Coffee in front of the house but we want to cremate Arya and I'm not financially ready for that.
Zach just started his job yesterday but he still has awhile to go before payday probably.
I'm having a hard time motivating myself to do anything right now.
I think I need to take a break from having rats/pets for awhile after they are all gone. But I dread the thought of not being able to snuggle rats in the morning or before bed. And right now we have seven rats. SEVEN rats who are all getting old and nearing the end of their lifespan. I can't go through this that many times in such a short amount of time. I don't know what to do. There isn't anything I CAN do short of adopting some out but I don't want to give up anyone. My babies arent disposable or replaceable.

I feel like I'm mentally falling apart