After stepping back for a while and doing some self analysis, I think I have found the reason for why I get so many commissions. As it is probably easy to guess (since I am so active online) I have pretty much nil in terms of RL friends, and a life, heh. I'm just working and going to college at the moment, and all of my fun and excitement revolves around online stuff.

So when online badness happens (and especially when it involves friends dissapearing) I get a little upset. I realize that this is the way the internet runs (and hell, it could be a lot worse really), but I'm a rather sensitive person when it comes to folks who I view as close.

Long story short- I get depressed. Easily. And I think I get all of these commissions because it makes me feel in control and gives me a sense of power that I do not have in real life.

I'm not as horny as everyone tends to think I am. Nor am I seeking popularity or trying to 'buy fame' as someone put it to me. I'm just depressed and want to feel in control of something. Also getting gifts for others, or seeing people react positively to stuff that I pay for makes me feel good and helps validate my behavior.

I don't mind spending the money. Money comes and money goes, but real friends are priceless.

Anyways, I'll get to posting some more stuff. I'm still fighting depression though, thanks to midterms and also my upcoming birthday this month (turning 29 on the 22nd... and i'm STILL in community college! ugh!! this is a big depression issue for me as well)

Thanks for the support and kind words to everyone who posted. You guys make sticking around here worth while.