Why am I writing this I don't know. Maybe to steam off or not to give up... but it's so fu* hard!!! Last week on friday I was unloading in England. I used to load the same day for Netherland... but there was a problem... I was on the unloading for so long my driving hours were gone. I contacted my disponent and warned her about that. Answer... no problem you'll load at monday. So I was stucked over there for weekend... but that was only the beggining... on monday I couldn't load because that load was already gone. They sent snother ref number but... this load was slso on the way already... and so started the agony... they were sending me here and there trying this and that combination... the next three days one hour cost me for a week of my nerves... it was a nightmare for driver. Yesterday I finally unloaded in Netherland. Today I used to load cosmetics for Croatia and headed home for weekend but... I was driving garbage from UK to NL and my trailer smell so bad that they didn't want to load me. So I won't load today and I'm gonna be out for weekend again... my third in the row... and t...that was it... My nerves were gone... first time in 11 years of driving. First i took the phone and tell everyone to go to FU* HELL then I closed myself in the cab and just... l... let myself to despair... I...I CAN'T TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE!!!! P...please I...I just wanna go h...home...