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[rant] FUCK THE WORLD
17 years ago
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This is for you, you and you. (Well all you writers out there):
http://www.nanowrimo.org
http://www.nanowrimo.org
You know what gets on my nerve? Those the self-centered people who, when you do something nice for them, DON’T even thank you… like at this Yap and Draw… I gave Dragyn money that I got for MY parents for birthday from my parents to get himself some art. And I got no thanks you. What just makes things worse… is the fact I DON’T feel welcomed to the place I call my home. I know some of you know the feeling… people there wonder why I don’t interact with people there? Alexi… I lost all respect for him since that one stint at one weekly furmeet. Red…. Its wiser for me to hold my tongue then to let loose what I have against him. Lucifur… I just thought you were different, but my hopes proved wrong. I can’t be around some of those people… nor do I wish to interact with them willing.
For me… as I write this I am on the edge, of breaking down. This would not be the first time… this would like the fourth time this year. Always on the time where people normal happy (xmas, birthday..ect) I have broken down. This is worst I had it. Today (feb 7th) is my birthday… when I should be happy, I am depressed and writhed. I try to make myself happy by giving the money I got for my birthday to Dragyn so he could get some art. But he comment about it just going to make things worse drove me deeper into this ’hole’. so back that when he offered to get me a picture with that money I said he could use it all because I want nothing… Everything I do the make myself happy, back fired and make me digg a deeper hole. I never really enjoyed myself unless I was lose myself into some thinking… like working my left way. Back in my home town I would work 24/7 for two weeks so that I did not have to put up with myself… I’m happier doing things where I am not myself… where I can put up a smiles and no one is wiser to my feeling.
Then again I can’t recall any time longer then an hour I been happy. I am like a vortex of emotional desolation. Not even my Ex… someone when was my mate… never gave me the emotional support I needed… I don’t as for much. Just someone to hold me and a shoulder to cry on. Yet no one come near because ’I am so cold.’ just fucking HUG me… I’m the kind that never want to ask for anything, nor willing answer honesty when to comes to who I am feeling.. But I will not push away what is offered.
*hugs tightly*
Okay, tell you what. If you ever want to chat sometime, feel free to IM me. You can find my IM names on my FA page.
That's the other half of my whole movement, and it looks like I might be able to help you out there.
~Otaku-Man
The first half was helping people get over the drama and emotional baggage that plagues them. A lot of people on FA tend to be drama queens, and it's hard to sort out who has legitimate problems that need a listening ear and shoulder to lean on, versus those who are bitching and moaning about petty things and getting all over the top with them. Those people need a good boot to the head and realize that what they have going on isn't worth the trouble.
You can find that first half in my journals.
But yeah, those are the two key factors of the Anti-Drama Llama movement at the moment.
~Otaku-Man
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sAYj7PtUQX8
~Otaku-Man
Although, that make you feel a bit better? You know, after you regained consciousness from lack of breath from laughing so hard?
~Otaku-Man
im so sad that all this is happening to you...
if you want to talk i will be on aim waiting for you.
and we can talk about living situations, and possible solutions etc.
I loves you james, dont let these ppl get you down...
Don't wrap yourself up and then blame others for not listening to nothing you said.