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shamble ramble
11 years ago
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lately i've been thinking about stuff (warning: ramble ahead)
where my life is going
how single i am
what i do with my time
and i've been trying to figure stuff out and grow as a person
when i think about it, i don't want a relationship. but when i don't, i do.
my weird friendships are enough for me i think. i give a lot of love out just there, and it's good because there aren't expectations and i already know what i'm doing. in a sense, i'm already in love with a few people right there.
i think what i want when i think i want a romantic relationship is just physical affection, and that any actual relationship i would enter would be gross and awkward because i have no idea what i'm doing and i wouldn't know how to act at all.
i've survived 19 years without it so far, so good. i think i'll be alright for now.
in a sense, i am probably aromantic or perhaps just incredibly demiromantic. not that it matters particularly.
i wake up the majority of days and i'm actually able to get out of bed. i'm happy. i feel mildly stagnant at times, but that dissipates after hanging out with my friends. (jegus i love you guys)
its actually fairly different to how things were before i moved to melbourne.
it's nice to have a sort of stability like that i guess. its allowed me to start thinking about my identity and what exactly i'm doing on this planet.
anyway, i'm going nowhere fast with this journal.
bye~
where my life is going
how single i am
what i do with my time
and i've been trying to figure stuff out and grow as a person
when i think about it, i don't want a relationship. but when i don't, i do.
my weird friendships are enough for me i think. i give a lot of love out just there, and it's good because there aren't expectations and i already know what i'm doing. in a sense, i'm already in love with a few people right there.
i think what i want when i think i want a romantic relationship is just physical affection, and that any actual relationship i would enter would be gross and awkward because i have no idea what i'm doing and i wouldn't know how to act at all.
i've survived 19 years without it so far, so good. i think i'll be alright for now.
in a sense, i am probably aromantic or perhaps just incredibly demiromantic. not that it matters particularly.
i wake up the majority of days and i'm actually able to get out of bed. i'm happy. i feel mildly stagnant at times, but that dissipates after hanging out with my friends. (jegus i love you guys)
its actually fairly different to how things were before i moved to melbourne.
it's nice to have a sort of stability like that i guess. its allowed me to start thinking about my identity and what exactly i'm doing on this planet.
anyway, i'm going nowhere fast with this journal.
bye~
