This is a question that I've been thinking about recently. It is more deep than just "do I like girls or boys?" I'm gay, no doubt about it. But what do I find attractive? Looks are not that important to me. Sure, looks do have an impact on how attractive I think a person is, but that is considered only after I see the mind. "wtf does that mean?!" you might ask.

I am generally aroused by people who show an ability to practice critical thought. Those that love to consider the deeper and more complex nature of things rather than just skimming along the surface. Those that aren't afraid to admit they could be wrong and are more worried about understanding the nature of reality rather than satisfying their personal ego by insisting they are correct.

The sad thing is, those kinds of people are few and far between. At this point in my life I only know a few people that I enjoy carrying out a conversation with. I am hoping that will change as I progress through college, when I get to the higher level classes and the students that showed a half-assed effort have been weeded out. I get the feeling that there is a community of people that I would be right at home with, but I am just not standing out due to my current lack of education.

I must come off as odd to most people. I understand how that can make them uncomfortable. "We tend to fear that which we do not understand, in this the only defense is knowledge." Maybe it is how they react to me that makes me want to withdraw. If life as taught me anything, it is that despite my efforts, I get unexpected negative reactions from others. I don't know why this is, and I have grown tired of trying to figure it out.

So what is my sexuality? Well, if I have to put labels on it then this is currently my best stab at it. I am a homosexual, sapiosexual, androphilic, demisexual, vers./bottom.

"Ok, wtf does all of that mean?!"

It is probably mostly nonsense. xþ I'm gay, attracted to intelligence in others, attracted to masculine body types (which also applies to the kind of people I want to be friendly with), I do not feel sexually attracted to a person unless I have an emotional bond with them, and I can top and bottom but I prefer to bottom.