Yeah, depression isn't any fun at all. Here's to this at least being a step in the right direction, dude.

If I knew you more my response would definitely be more personalized, I don't, however. xD Still, the least I could do is listen or something like that.

I know depression is fucking brutal, so I'm really glad you're taking the steps to get on antidepressants! Just don't go on prozac. That shit's bad news. Make sure to discuss side effects with your doctor and choose the medication that sounds best for you. Be aware, antidepressants won't change anything quickly. You could be taking them for a couple months before you notice a significant difference. Also, if you feel suicidal after being on them for a week or two, that's normal. In fact, it means you're starting to get better! Many people commit suicide when they're getting better because, before, they didn't have the motivation or drive to do it. Once they've got their motivation back, suddenly suicide comes easy. Be wary of this and try to avoid it. If you feel more motivated to commit suicide, just stick it out. It'll be worth it once you come out through the other side.

Good luck, Milo! And just know that you can note me or facebook me at any time. :)

jesus christ, are you serious? dude, I'm not that strong, to feel even MORE influenced toward suicide.

that's actually really terrifying

I'm serious, but it's only temporary! You need to discuss this with your doctor, maybe do a risk assessment together, and draw up a plan you can execute in the event that these urges to become amplified. A plan to live through it, I mean - not a plan to finish everything. Have you ever heard of practicing mindfulness? It's a kind of meditation technique in which you focus as intensely as possible on all the thoughts and sensations you're feeling, without judgment on the thoughts. Largely, it's about noticing your thoughts as if they were the weather. It may assist you - google it to find out more! Is cognitive-behavioural therapy an option for you? I don't know if it costs anything in the US, 'cause it's free here, but if you can pair that with the antidepressants, that's one of your best bets for recovery, as it allows you to sit down and discuss your feelings and progress (or lack thereof) with a professional who can help keep you on track to recovery! :)

Are you back in AZ...?

I still really would like to see you

Unfortunately no.i might move back soon though. Getting tired of the city :B

How're you doing out there though?

ok. got my own place and everything. but I'm not really getting anywhere. I've proved that I can do this on my own, but the truth is, I'm simply not making enough money to advance my life. I'm stuck in between rent and food, and I don't have enough left over for anything else. so either way, I have to move to a cheaper place, lol

Ahh you sound like you have a good grip on things, better than me right now actually. I've had to move back in with my folks for a while and I miss being more independent

What part of CA exactly? NorCal right?

If you're on Skype or anything else I'd love to add you on a messenger

I live in San francisco. There's always a hidden underbelly nobody mentions, and this one is that people here are ass holes.

Don't worry about it. One thing that helped me feel better was something someone told me. At our age, we're not even supposed to be independent. We NEED help. So don't feel like you took a step back or anything

And yai have Skype thati only use for a group chat of furs every now and then. So I have you on there?

Yeah that's true, there's no sense in worrying about not being that successful in your 20's, because basically nobody is at that age...

Sorry that people there are a-holes, I thought the rainbow city would be more laid back in that regard

My current Skype is 'huskyote' if you wanna chat about anything sometime