Hun, don't think like that! I told you I'll be here for you, and I mean it! I'll always be here for you to talk to, vent on and listen to what you have to say. And I know others will be there too. Please, next time you feel like hurting yourself send me a note. Or if you've got a smartphone, we can talk on KiK any time. I don't want to see you hurt yourself, no one does.

Until recently, I wasn't even aware you had depression or suicidal thoughts. Now, considering the fact you don't exactly pronounce it, that means you are actually worth something. If you made sure everyone knew all the time, I'd think little of you and assume it was made up and for attention but you've only broken down and told us all when it's actually a problem for us. Not for you, for us, when you assumed that we'd be disappointed in your lack of drawings or comics or whatever.

Tsu, you're worth more than you give yourself credit for. You've been dealt a shit hand, I know all about that cos I'm always fucked by the casino of life, but that doesn't mean you're any less important than the rest of us. Just take your time, find a way to climb out of the pit you've found yourself in, and I promise you we'll all be here to support you when you do. All the honey sweet words I know can't help you beat this down, but I can sure as hell offer a hand to pull you up when you do.

^^This^^

^^What they said.^^

Seriously, though, I've been dealt some pretty shit hands in life myself, but I've been able to pull myself up from the pit of depression. So has my best friend. All three years of middle school for us were miserable, and the whole time, he was feeling suicidal. Now he's in college, and he's always got a cheerful attitude. I'm pretty happy myself, at least I would be if you weren't being so DAMNED hard on yourself. We all care for you, we're all here for you. The question is.... are you here for us?

*hugs*

Gotta keep your chin up, and your thoughts optimistic... I'm not a doctor, I don't know how to handle a depression like yours, but hurting yourself can't be a good answer. Just persevere through it, beat it back, and you'll come out on top! I wish you luck!

Oh man, I've been self harming for years and years. It's taken me until recently to finally stop and learn to beat the cravings to do it, although occasionally it still hits me hard.

I don't think that self harming is something that ever goes away but it's definitely something you can keep on top of most of the time once you get through the worst of it. Every day you go without hurting yourself is a day you're beating it. A little victory.

A lot of health practitioners view self harm as an addiction, due to the way our bodies learn to rely on it as a coping mechanism (sort of like comfort eating, or people who get addicted to jogging for comfort and end up severely injuring themselves by just doing too much, or like how alcohol becomes a coping mechanism for some). Anyone who can beat an addiction or at least stave it off is doing an amazing job. You said you want to self harm - which might imply you haven't done it yet. Good job if that's the case! I really enjoy your work but I think I value your sanity more, so definitely take time to look after yourself. I know you probably won't, but please feel free to message me or add me on skype or anything if you need someone to chat to. We can play online games together, or just chat, or my partner and I can be stupid and play music together to try cheer you up. Anything that might help you!!

I used to have chronic, chronic depression, and it wasn't until making some huge life changes that I managed to learn to keep on top of it. I'm lucky that I had the counselling services and support which taught me to do that and I hope that you get the support you need from friends, doctors, family or wherever it can be found.

Take care <3

I should add too, though forgot when I was writing, but I'm not exactly the kind of guy you wanna turn out like. I get how you can feel alone, my only damn friend in this god forsaken country is my cuddly toy, but being like this. It's actually a good thing, even if you are suicidal. I've dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts for far too many years and I've dealt with it alone. My friends ignored me for sex and parties, my family think I'm making shit up and I'm never one to burden others so I don't tell my husband anything even when I want nothing more than a knife rammed into my throat. I'm completely and utterly isolated so I did the only thing I could. I shut down completely. I don't cry for more than 5 minutes even when loved ones die because I don't allow it to be a weakness, I can't remember a time I could say I was happy and I honestly question who I am every waking second of the day because I do everything I can to stop me being me or thinking about me and feeling the way you feel right now. The way you're feeling now is better than the opposite because the opposite is me; a cold and robotic freak with no self-identity.

You have your family and friends and, for god's sake man, you have a love to lean on who's commited to being with you and helping you through such things. It's alright to be like this, it really is, but never forget you have so much more than just yourself to rely on when suffering. I can't help myself but I'll be damned if I can't help you so trust me in this. And, more so, trust your fiance cos someone who has your heart to mend a hell of a lot more than a psych-doc like me. Between me and your mate, you've got both an demon and an angel (respectively) on your side. If that isn't enough, I'll help him rally people till it is.

Don't underestemate me, matey boy, when I help people I help 'em good. >83

You do not have to say sorry and you are most certainly not alone.