I'm not a smoker but I really feel like I need one today LOL

So

At Starbucks we have a biannual health audit come in and check our store. Basically just checking if under our fridges are clean, beans aren't expires, etc etc
Not a huge deal

Except for me. I love having tasks, I do. My old manager put me in charge of self auditing the store to make sure we were up to par. On our first audit we failed. Barely, but it was still considered a fail.
I was traumatized because it was my duty to make sure the store was good. Granted everyone has a part, but as the lead of it I took the blame on myself.

So, if we fail one and pass the other, no biggie. If we fail both, then there's a problem.

Our auditor came today and I was not prepared.

When I'm nervous I talk extremely fast, and I was trying to tell her to give us five minutes until the manager was ready but I spoke so fast the auditor didn't understand me and she just gave me this look that seemed like it lasted forever before she asked me to repeat myself.

Fuck I'm so not good at things like this, I don't know why I'm in charge I panic too easily.

I was finished my shift before the audit finished so I'm not even certain we passed yet. I'm freaking out.

It literally does nothing to damage my rep if we fail but I just. Ahh.

I need a nap.