Creative title is creative haha!

But seriously, it's literally pertaining to EVERYTHING right now. I've worked myself down to the bone these past couple weeks (I would say a couple months, but I'll touch on that laterrrrrr) and let me tell you a hit a very creative wall a little while ago as far as art goes. I lost inspiration and drive and it's KILLED me.

The last couple weeks I've been working almost nonstop for Sparkle Kreations handsewing like mad to make some money so I can make it through MFF. Then when I get home, the moment I go to my room to relax from a long day, I find myself passing out almost immediately. I thought I was doing fine until I remembered that I also had 8 OTHER things I have to worry about plus 2 bills (which I have still been able to religiously pay each passing month; with one of them basically getting waaaaay past the line as far as urgency. FOR $20?! Really? Leave me alone man, chill.) AND people and events that I promised to be at (and I've yet to go back on those kinds of things).

Honestly, I can't believe I'm saying this but I've accidentally and unintentionally burnt myself out extremely hardcore this time. I've done nothing but work for Sparkle, go hang with people that I've made plans for, making a suit commission that has a MFF deadline, queue is piling up and I basically just stopped functioning. I'm seriously KICKING myself for it and it's driven me absolutely insane because the one thing that means the most to me (you awesome watchers and my commissioners) were swept under the rug and I SINCERELY apologize for doing that to you. I know all you wonderful commissioners are continuing to keep contact with me or patiently waiting for your art, but a couple of the commissions are a few months backlogged and I'm so upset at myself for not finishing them as fast as I anticipated for them to be. I'm hating myself, I'm hating myself, I'm hating myself. I know every single one of you say it's fine and to take my time, but I honestly feel so bad for taking so long when it shouldn't be. So again, I so very much SINCERELY apologize.


Now that that is out of my system, here's the afterthought of that

I don't want to break more promises to you guys, but I will say this: I'm doing a lot better, I've officially taken a week off from Sparkle Kreations work to catch up on my real work here and catch up the fursuit commission that I currently have that has a MFF deadline (and please, for future reference this is the ONLY time I'll have a deadline for a fursuit, after this I will be strongly implementing my NO DEADLINE rule on all future fursuit commissions!).

My inspiration came pouring back to me after seeing this lovely video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlEb3L1PIco
and I'm almost to the point (most likely later tonight or tomorrow) that I'll be back on my normal pace. I sincerely thank every one of you that has commissioned or is waiting for artwork from me for being so graciously patient. I hate feeling like I'm coming up with excuses for everything when I'm truly trying to juggle so much especially when it's coming up on the holiday season (why do the stores have Christmas stuff before Halloween ever even happens is waaaaaay beyond me, calm down stores lol). But do know I have full intention to finish everything before I go to MFF or (god forbid) by the end of this year. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart, thank you ;-;


Rukamae.exe reloading....

P.S. to the person that has noted me a couple days back (you know who you are), I read your note and yes I know it's been a while since we talked ;-; Your commission is the utmost highest god-like priority right now. I'm sorry I didn't get back to you about that though ;-;