I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel (I don't feel love, or much of any feelings anymore. Sometimes I'll think of something very tragic that happened in my life to purposly make myself deperessed, just to see if I can still feel deperession.)
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real (The depression is a breath of fresh air, knowing that I can still feel SOMETHING but, the depression gets worse every time.)
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything (Sometimes I'll try to kill myself to end all of the deperession, but I remember a promise I made to a good friend of mine.)

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend (Referring to my friend Flare, whom I used to get along with so well.)
Everyone I know goes away
In the end (Whenever I make a new friend and start to trust people, I always end up hurting myself.)
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt ("My empire of dirt" referring to my love, because I always end up hurting people I care about..)

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair (I always remember all the friendships I've broken because of how I hurt people. I can never repair those friendships.)
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear (Over time I have stopped feeling feelings.)
You are someone else
I am still right here (Whilst the people that I've stopped being friends with live there lives, I'm stuck missing them. )

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end (Everyone I ever love hurts me and shit.)
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way (Sometimes I wish I could start over all over again.)