I really did bust to get the assignments in. Even though I really did suck for mostly ALL of them.
The instructor is really nice ;____;
and when I told him my circumstances at midterms he became very lenient through the rest of the quarter.
Also, on my part, I actually contacted him. I sucked up my social anxiety and called him on the phone.
And he just called me back again giving me an update on where my grade was after he graded my late work, and since it's not a milestone class (meaning you have to pass with a C or higher) I can scrape by!!!

I could barf rainbows and glitter i'm so HAPPY AND RELIEVED. I had a major break down and kind of an acceptance moment that I would fail.
My grandpa even called me to say that even if I failed that they would not be less proud of me, and that I have my whole life ahead and that it doesn't matter, I could take it again. and not to worry about disappointing them or my parents. ect ect ; __ ;
I actually really needed to hear that because I've been keeping my failing all to myself, its just one of my fears to end up a failure to my family, and I guess anybody. and the stress was just eating me from the inside out, and all my levels across the board were being dragged down.