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17 years ago
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Well i've been thinking about life and death and temporal events and the journeys and the places and I have come to some conclusions I suppose.
I remember the first time death scared me, I was 5 or 6, it was a cold night in my England home and I couldn't stop crying, I kept thinking about death, about everything ending. I was not brought up with any kind of religion or spiritual belief and so all that was in my mind was the end is the end. My mum came in and tried to guess what I was upset about for about half an hour, she finally came close enough with 'are you afraid of me and your father dying?' I wanted to correct her but I didn't want to take away her pride so I just agreed with that. she tried to comfort me but her advice was silly, the thought didn't resolve itself until I was about 14, I decided that the destination- nothingness, heaven, hell, reincarnation were obsolete and that what I did and how I enjoyed my time and journey were the important things.
I had a problem with accepting things as temporary though, I wanted to hold onto things, friends, possessions, moments, experiences. I didn't want anything to fall into the abyss and it wasn't till I was 17 and spent a few months being stoned that I gained an appreciation for the loss of things, to accept the moments and find the wealth within them. There's still a few things that I don't like being temporary like language, words, ownership or politics but I feel thats justified. I think of what will happen when I die and if by some miracle everything i've created in my life survived then in a few centuries language could be gone, words may mean different things, the politics will have changed, all our outlooks and opinions will be invalidated. I try to live a life that is timeless, a life that I could live now, a millennium ago or a millennium in the future.
This started coming to mind when I was watching a delightfully ignorant video about how bad homosexuality is made by our loving friends, the christians. I just think the idea of religion is to provide a quick fix solution to the troublesome thoughts of demise which can offer a wholesome guideline as to life as a group of people see righteous. I have no problem with that and i'm glad that people can find happiness down that avenue but I don't see how something which seems so innocent and well meaning can turn into something which people will kill for or die for or ignore reason for. the only constant in humanity's existence has been the human will and that means the gift of being able to take what you want from life. when people focus on the end, the destination, the HOPE of a heaven or a hell then they're throwing their lives away, theres so much that the world can offer, so much the brain can see and question and interpret that it seems totally insane to me to base your ideas off someone else's philosophies. I enjoy living and I enjoy thinking and I hate seeing people trying to make the world to conform into one mind. it scares me in fact. so if you've read this please just live the life you enjoy because thats the only way it should be.
I remember the first time death scared me, I was 5 or 6, it was a cold night in my England home and I couldn't stop crying, I kept thinking about death, about everything ending. I was not brought up with any kind of religion or spiritual belief and so all that was in my mind was the end is the end. My mum came in and tried to guess what I was upset about for about half an hour, she finally came close enough with 'are you afraid of me and your father dying?' I wanted to correct her but I didn't want to take away her pride so I just agreed with that. she tried to comfort me but her advice was silly, the thought didn't resolve itself until I was about 14, I decided that the destination- nothingness, heaven, hell, reincarnation were obsolete and that what I did and how I enjoyed my time and journey were the important things.
I had a problem with accepting things as temporary though, I wanted to hold onto things, friends, possessions, moments, experiences. I didn't want anything to fall into the abyss and it wasn't till I was 17 and spent a few months being stoned that I gained an appreciation for the loss of things, to accept the moments and find the wealth within them. There's still a few things that I don't like being temporary like language, words, ownership or politics but I feel thats justified. I think of what will happen when I die and if by some miracle everything i've created in my life survived then in a few centuries language could be gone, words may mean different things, the politics will have changed, all our outlooks and opinions will be invalidated. I try to live a life that is timeless, a life that I could live now, a millennium ago or a millennium in the future.
This started coming to mind when I was watching a delightfully ignorant video about how bad homosexuality is made by our loving friends, the christians. I just think the idea of religion is to provide a quick fix solution to the troublesome thoughts of demise which can offer a wholesome guideline as to life as a group of people see righteous. I have no problem with that and i'm glad that people can find happiness down that avenue but I don't see how something which seems so innocent and well meaning can turn into something which people will kill for or die for or ignore reason for. the only constant in humanity's existence has been the human will and that means the gift of being able to take what you want from life. when people focus on the end, the destination, the HOPE of a heaven or a hell then they're throwing their lives away, theres so much that the world can offer, so much the brain can see and question and interpret that it seems totally insane to me to base your ideas off someone else's philosophies. I enjoy living and I enjoy thinking and I hate seeing people trying to make the world to conform into one mind. it scares me in fact. so if you've read this please just live the life you enjoy because thats the only way it should be.
(lateness of reply is due to constant [and i mean constant] procrastination) :0
Personal belief should be what it is. They should be discovered by the individual. But there's nothing wrong with basing your beliefs on another's philosophies. I don't see it like copying other beliefs, but more like a "This guy makes a lot of sense" or "I feel the same way he does!".
Unfortunately, the reality is, the masses of this world commonly seek to fit in, or to identify with something powerful. Organized religions always brag about their growing numbers and that does attract people. Pressure is almost always put on members of a family if they don't "be part of the family Patrick, you're a catholic whether you like it or not". I've had to go through that pressure and I was forced to do things I really didn't feel I needed. I really don't agree with Catholicism and I actually despise the modern Vatican.
Personally, I'm a deist. There is a God, but there is no divine intervention. We people are on our own, but we are given powerful minds and souls when put to good use. Heaven is to me an unlikely destination, and so it's up to people to do their best to create a heaven on earth. It's up to every individual to work to make this world a better place for all. Evil is real, but ambiguous thanks to, well, evil.