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Katsucon Rant
16 years ago
OK Friday was fun and enjoyable. I didn't get my Brawl Tournament because we got inside at like 5 or 6 ish @.@ o well and goodness I didn't join the brawl tournament was so messed up XD It took like 4 hours to finish.Le gay. Rozt was treating my like I was his and only his the hole day which I am but were not dating or anything o.O I mean I have like 20 guys ask me to that V-day dance. and rozt kept saying how he would make sure they would leave me alone =.= then the one furry I met he gets all defensive over. sure he asked for my number but it was joking abound. I would have loved to talk to him but like IM no Numbers for him o.O he was the first furry I met in real life aside from jacob.
So to the point Friday was amazing and completely enjoyable.
Saturday. Different story. It went to the gaming room and at 4PM ish when Rozts Guilty Gear tournament started. So he was told that he couldn't use his own controler so he put it in his bag. When we saw people were useing there own controllers I asked if he wanted to get it. He wanted to hear is he was next so I offer to get it for him. Then I relize that this dress I'm wearing won't cover a controler. So I ask for his jacket and while he takes it off his button colored shirt comes off also. Here's were things go sour. I giggle/laugh. He tells to to shut the fuck up and get on the damn jacket and tells me to shut up again then says everything is my fault if he loses if I don't get it quickly. Well I was going to but changed my mind on a split second. I'm not taking that shit. I offered to help. He gets PMS because I was trying to keep the mood good so he wasn't stressed. I hate it when he gets into gaming mode. He tells me to fuck off so much it's not funny. I even asked him to cool down when he plays countless times. Like I hit the point that I couldn't take it anymore and went off to cry in the restroom.
Well after 10 min I got it out of my system and waited for about 2-3 hours when the tournament was over. I do admit I was upset and was somewhat snappy because I didn't appreciate him treating me like his bitch or something. No lazy told me to never take that kind of shit because you can't let them push you around. I calmed down and hung out with katie. Everyone is back together heading to Live 2. I try to do the 'kiss and make up' But Rozt is still being a ass hole about everything so after 30 minutes of trying I'm on the verge of tears again because it's my fault most likely. I tried to stay cheerful because men don't say sorry or at least Rozt doesn't >.>
So he ditches us in Live 2 when I see he is still angry. So I have to suck up my crying because it was a question and Answer in Live 2 and I get over it quickly with hugs of me shaymin doll I got. Katie and I go up to Kats room and they give me advice about telling Rozt I like like him I just fucked up the first time and said no because dating well I have never dated and everything is new. They had to explain a lot to me. The said they saw that Rozt was moving to quickly. Like I was still behind the line and Rozt was running to first base already. They had to do a lot of explaining because I'm stupid XD They told me to wait till he calms down. Well that didn't work out ,,!,,
So we go back down and meat the others randomly. apparently they danced with out us. Thy didn't even call! Rozt is still blowing me off after I asked why he didn't call. So once more I'm about to cry again and I'm hitting this choking tears from about 9 PM till I got home when was 12 because I guess I'm a fucking ass hole for trying to help him out. I do start crying when I get home and I still am. So it's almost 10 and I try to say cheerful. Now my art action was a 10 PM and I made this perfectly clear to the point I won't shut up about it. So everyone knew. Rozt says that we should head out to dinner. I do my likkle 'but I ..." deal and he goes. What? When I'm like never mind I'm going to the third floor you eat without me. What kind off jerk does that I'm sure he did that on purpose. I tried to do everything for him and that he said he would go in the art auction with me before things went sour he conventionally forgets it. So I walk off crying for like 5 sedonds then I have to hold it in becausr Kat comes after me. She tells me katie is telling Rozt is being a complete jerk and should apologize. I guess they knew I was crying and completely sad. Must be a girl thing : /
I go to the auction room and had my dreams shattered because I was out bid on a picture i wanted. O well. However the Auction room was very cheerful and it got me to laugh and smile. I was very happy. Now I'm wondering at this point why no one has called that they were back from dinner. WTF did they go to the Brodmore or something o.O I have a major fear of being lost so after calling Alexis a billion times, Rozt once or twice. and Karl twice I start to freak and once more about to cry. I go back to the gaming room and find them there and apparently Rozt still didn't call to ask if I wanted to drop of my stuff and once more I feel like real shit again. So I'm guessing that me feeling miserable was just an act to him. O yeah and I'm not a crying person and I never cry unless I'm just destroyed to a pile of dust which happened today thanks to Rozt : )
I am told I can't go in the gaming room a because I left to refill my water bottle. I was going crazy on water to keep myself from crying. So I have to pee really badly now >.< I tell them I'm not aloud in the gaming room and then leave just now completely destroyed mentally like I'm not a pile of dust I have been reduced to nothing at this point. I find Alvin and sit next to him wondering if I should call my dad to pick me up.
So for the rest of the time I'm trying my hardest not to cry and it only gets worst when I see Rozt because I'm scared he's going to hurt me because It was all my fault. He gets really mean when playing his vid games though
So about 11 we head back and I try my hardest not to cry but I lose the ability to breath after doing the sucking it up what not. So I start to to the sighs and quiet gasps of crying because it's hard to hold it in. So I get to my house and don't really catch what anyone sayed because my ears are popping like crazy because I can't breath. Rozt said something but I know it wasn't sorry o I just left with a sobbing break down of 'whatever' So that brings me to here. Crying and I haven't cried for like a year now. My Spanish teacher made my cry on my B-day by calling my stupid and stuff if it weren't for her it would have been like 7 years or something of not crying.
So yeah I am still crying because I can't stop because apparently it's all my fault. He will probably deny it so that's why I posted it on FA were he doesn't really look on because he's not much of a furry.
So yah Katsucon. Worst con of my life so far because Rozt got me to to cry for the rest of it. I could have saved at least 100 $ if I didn't go. I wish I knew Rozt was going to blame me for everything and make my cry.
POSITIVE NEWS
I got a big shaymin land form and a shy shaymin Pokemon center plush size.
I'm happy about that but it's not enough to make me feel better. So I'm going to cry for the rest on the night. so don't expect anything this this weekend. So good night I will go cry some more T.T
So to the point Friday was amazing and completely enjoyable.
Saturday. Different story. It went to the gaming room and at 4PM ish when Rozts Guilty Gear tournament started. So he was told that he couldn't use his own controler so he put it in his bag. When we saw people were useing there own controllers I asked if he wanted to get it. He wanted to hear is he was next so I offer to get it for him. Then I relize that this dress I'm wearing won't cover a controler. So I ask for his jacket and while he takes it off his button colored shirt comes off also. Here's were things go sour. I giggle/laugh. He tells to to shut the fuck up and get on the damn jacket and tells me to shut up again then says everything is my fault if he loses if I don't get it quickly. Well I was going to but changed my mind on a split second. I'm not taking that shit. I offered to help. He gets PMS because I was trying to keep the mood good so he wasn't stressed. I hate it when he gets into gaming mode. He tells me to fuck off so much it's not funny. I even asked him to cool down when he plays countless times. Like I hit the point that I couldn't take it anymore and went off to cry in the restroom.
Well after 10 min I got it out of my system and waited for about 2-3 hours when the tournament was over. I do admit I was upset and was somewhat snappy because I didn't appreciate him treating me like his bitch or something. No lazy told me to never take that kind of shit because you can't let them push you around. I calmed down and hung out with katie. Everyone is back together heading to Live 2. I try to do the 'kiss and make up' But Rozt is still being a ass hole about everything so after 30 minutes of trying I'm on the verge of tears again because it's my fault most likely. I tried to stay cheerful because men don't say sorry or at least Rozt doesn't >.>
So he ditches us in Live 2 when I see he is still angry. So I have to suck up my crying because it was a question and Answer in Live 2 and I get over it quickly with hugs of me shaymin doll I got. Katie and I go up to Kats room and they give me advice about telling Rozt I like like him I just fucked up the first time and said no because dating well I have never dated and everything is new. They had to explain a lot to me. The said they saw that Rozt was moving to quickly. Like I was still behind the line and Rozt was running to first base already. They had to do a lot of explaining because I'm stupid XD They told me to wait till he calms down. Well that didn't work out ,,!,,
So we go back down and meat the others randomly. apparently they danced with out us. Thy didn't even call! Rozt is still blowing me off after I asked why he didn't call. So once more I'm about to cry again and I'm hitting this choking tears from about 9 PM till I got home when was 12 because I guess I'm a fucking ass hole for trying to help him out. I do start crying when I get home and I still am. So it's almost 10 and I try to say cheerful. Now my art action was a 10 PM and I made this perfectly clear to the point I won't shut up about it. So everyone knew. Rozt says that we should head out to dinner. I do my likkle 'but I ..." deal and he goes. What? When I'm like never mind I'm going to the third floor you eat without me. What kind off jerk does that I'm sure he did that on purpose. I tried to do everything for him and that he said he would go in the art auction with me before things went sour he conventionally forgets it. So I walk off crying for like 5 sedonds then I have to hold it in becausr Kat comes after me. She tells me katie is telling Rozt is being a complete jerk and should apologize. I guess they knew I was crying and completely sad. Must be a girl thing : /
I go to the auction room and had my dreams shattered because I was out bid on a picture i wanted. O well. However the Auction room was very cheerful and it got me to laugh and smile. I was very happy. Now I'm wondering at this point why no one has called that they were back from dinner. WTF did they go to the Brodmore or something o.O I have a major fear of being lost so after calling Alexis a billion times, Rozt once or twice. and Karl twice I start to freak and once more about to cry. I go back to the gaming room and find them there and apparently Rozt still didn't call to ask if I wanted to drop of my stuff and once more I feel like real shit again. So I'm guessing that me feeling miserable was just an act to him. O yeah and I'm not a crying person and I never cry unless I'm just destroyed to a pile of dust which happened today thanks to Rozt : )
I am told I can't go in the gaming room a because I left to refill my water bottle. I was going crazy on water to keep myself from crying. So I have to pee really badly now >.< I tell them I'm not aloud in the gaming room and then leave just now completely destroyed mentally like I'm not a pile of dust I have been reduced to nothing at this point. I find Alvin and sit next to him wondering if I should call my dad to pick me up.
So for the rest of the time I'm trying my hardest not to cry and it only gets worst when I see Rozt because I'm scared he's going to hurt me because It was all my fault. He gets really mean when playing his vid games though
So about 11 we head back and I try my hardest not to cry but I lose the ability to breath after doing the sucking it up what not. So I start to to the sighs and quiet gasps of crying because it's hard to hold it in. So I get to my house and don't really catch what anyone sayed because my ears are popping like crazy because I can't breath. Rozt said something but I know it wasn't sorry o I just left with a sobbing break down of 'whatever' So that brings me to here. Crying and I haven't cried for like a year now. My Spanish teacher made my cry on my B-day by calling my stupid and stuff if it weren't for her it would have been like 7 years or something of not crying.
So yeah I am still crying because I can't stop because apparently it's all my fault. He will probably deny it so that's why I posted it on FA were he doesn't really look on because he's not much of a furry.
So yah Katsucon. Worst con of my life so far because Rozt got me to to cry for the rest of it. I could have saved at least 100 $ if I didn't go. I wish I knew Rozt was going to blame me for everything and make my cry.
POSITIVE NEWS
I got a big shaymin land form and a shy shaymin Pokemon center plush size.
I'm happy about that but it's not enough to make me feel better. So I'm going to cry for the rest on the night. so don't expect anything this this weekend. So good night I will go cry some more T.T
