Is just curl up in a ball and just exist...........tuck my personality away into a tiny cramped jar and just..exist........to just go about my day to day life.....work.......exercise......repeat.........work.......exercise.......repeat. Don't go to vape shops.......don't hang out....Just work.......exercise.......repeat. I'm tired of being myself, giving advice tirelessly and opening up my heart to anyone who needs it to just be.............tossed aside when my heart runs dry...........I'm just tired of it all. Suicide would be too good a death for me to even think about it.