I don't care if anyone reads this or not, it's just one of those shitty journals where someone complains about their life. I feel like I literally can't do anything right. I'm not making enough money, I can't get myself to do stupid every day shit like take care of myself because just existing drains all my energy. I make people around me miserable. I can't even gather the energy to take care of the animals I have like I should, which makes me feel even worse. Oh and now I have to get rid of them [again] and apparently it's %100 my responsibility to make sure shit happens even though we agreed responsibility was going to be shared. Then I hear "stop feeling sorry for yourself, those are all things you can fix, if it really bothered you you would deal with it." That is so not how it works, but y'know, thank you for adding to the list of things I can't get right. I'm so done with everything, and I have nowhere to go. I can honestly say that I've never felt this out of place and alone.