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Why I am shit and why we are all a bunch of attention whores
11 years ago
Okay.. so...
I been trying to write a story just for fun and kicks for some time now. It wasn't a big thing like a webcomic or anything. Just a humble creation of mine that may have been good or bad. Naturally I would have tried to make it good, yes, but whatever it lead its where it lead ya know?
Well it didn't turn out good or bad necessarily but it turned into something I didn't want at all.
I didn't get far in creating this world and the fantasy story set around it. But I was getting off the ground, and it had a lot of the things most fantasy stories had; dragons, demons, elves, even dwarves and mermaids. I was going for a good story.
But then my friends look down on it not so well... Two of them specifically. I wrote out one, I repeat, ONE NUDITY SCENE late in the first act of the story. And long before I drew any porn just cause I felt like it, it was meet with assumption that the story was going to be an erotic one.
That infuriates me. I have no problems with drawing porn, none at all. I would like to draw and write porn, but the problem is that I tried to write a legit story with all that I could muster up with my ability, no matter how it turned out.
Instead my efforts are pushed aside and downgraded to a porno with a plot.
To me, porn is its own flavor of media. Its something everyone watches or looks at, and its an easy way to get attention and just about every artist online does. Everyone and their mother draws or writes porn online. Its a fact of life.
And I wanted to not do that. I wanted to challenge myself in writing something that may have been good on its own for good story telling or characters that people might enjoy if they came across it, and not decide that its a smut story.
It really hurts my feelings an awful lot, and not just because its insulting to me... but also because it is my friends and because I am no different from my friends, or anyone else who publicly.
and thats another thing. My friends tell me I should write for myself, despite their own opinions of my creations. To that, I say no... and this is why. We all post our art or writings for EVERYONE to see despite this, as we are all suppose to do it for ourselves no matter whatever anyone else in the world says.
But if this advice is so good, why not just keep these creations in our heads where it is only viewable to us in your imagination? Why does everyone else HAVE to see something that is done for ourselves? Because we want praise and attention. The only other reason you should expose it to the world is if you are making something to make a living, like a TV show or a book.
Otherwise there is no reason to post things that you do for yourself. If you do something for yourself, then keep it in your head or at least NEVER post it online.
I do the same thing as we all do.
...but even now I remember my ideal. While my two friends hurt me, I'm still their friend no matter the circumstance.
But I'd be lying if I said I wanted to continue trying to write my fantasy story. I'm still pretty hurt by it...
I been trying to write a story just for fun and kicks for some time now. It wasn't a big thing like a webcomic or anything. Just a humble creation of mine that may have been good or bad. Naturally I would have tried to make it good, yes, but whatever it lead its where it lead ya know?
Well it didn't turn out good or bad necessarily but it turned into something I didn't want at all.
I didn't get far in creating this world and the fantasy story set around it. But I was getting off the ground, and it had a lot of the things most fantasy stories had; dragons, demons, elves, even dwarves and mermaids. I was going for a good story.
But then my friends look down on it not so well... Two of them specifically. I wrote out one, I repeat, ONE NUDITY SCENE late in the first act of the story. And long before I drew any porn just cause I felt like it, it was meet with assumption that the story was going to be an erotic one.
That infuriates me. I have no problems with drawing porn, none at all. I would like to draw and write porn, but the problem is that I tried to write a legit story with all that I could muster up with my ability, no matter how it turned out.
Instead my efforts are pushed aside and downgraded to a porno with a plot.
To me, porn is its own flavor of media. Its something everyone watches or looks at, and its an easy way to get attention and just about every artist online does. Everyone and their mother draws or writes porn online. Its a fact of life.
And I wanted to not do that. I wanted to challenge myself in writing something that may have been good on its own for good story telling or characters that people might enjoy if they came across it, and not decide that its a smut story.
It really hurts my feelings an awful lot, and not just because its insulting to me... but also because it is my friends and because I am no different from my friends, or anyone else who publicly.
and thats another thing. My friends tell me I should write for myself, despite their own opinions of my creations. To that, I say no... and this is why. We all post our art or writings for EVERYONE to see despite this, as we are all suppose to do it for ourselves no matter whatever anyone else in the world says.
But if this advice is so good, why not just keep these creations in our heads where it is only viewable to us in your imagination? Why does everyone else HAVE to see something that is done for ourselves? Because we want praise and attention. The only other reason you should expose it to the world is if you are making something to make a living, like a TV show or a book.
Otherwise there is no reason to post things that you do for yourself. If you do something for yourself, then keep it in your head or at least NEVER post it online.
I do the same thing as we all do.
...but even now I remember my ideal. While my two friends hurt me, I'm still their friend no matter the circumstance.
But I'd be lying if I said I wanted to continue trying to write my fantasy story. I'm still pretty hurt by it...
