Because he has another schizophrenia episode and its actually getting worse, seeing invisble people again forcing me to make flyers and spending money to scientists and let him be the laughing stalk about it and I barely got any sleep due to him yelling all day about it vnv;; So yeah there goes my gift exchanging plans... =\ And yeah I'm actually depressed about it but I wanna tell you this because he won't go on here...

Its been 6 Years since this is happening, I've been to foster care twice in my life and I think my tumor came from him from the intensed stress I went to a psych ward for 2 weeks because the last foster care place I went to was a conservitive type and trying to arrest me for brushing my damn teeth because I was wasting water. And to top it all off my dad takes Viccadan, Ambian, and Umisom for medicine. And when he runs out he gets into great pain and sometimes he ODs on Ambian like 6 or 8 Pills, and sometimes when he goes out to have gay sex him and his friends take Meth or Esctasy. There was some times he thinks I'm the invisible person and blames it on my friends too, which is annoying and everytime he goes to a Psych Ward... He lies it all off not even telling the truth on whats wrong and shit. One time I did and he completely destoryed all of my shit in my room.

So yeah christmas is cancelled and I'm pretty damn depressed about it due to having a schizophrenic dad that literly goes to the FBI saying there is people stalking him and trying to kill him with cloaking devices with silent helicopters and stuff that I would tell you that would be nuts... =\

Oh yeah he forced me to make a damn tumblr and put his underwear pic as a profile pic as a meaning and I'm like, they'll think its a porn account idiot. Lets see he made a Gofundme as well and I can tell you how many accounts he did putting as an Anon name for it...

Ugh... I dunno... I should save on money to get a car and try to get the hell outta there to survive, this is like my frustration talking out of me because I am pretty damn pissed about it...