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so.. well crap. this is why i ahte talking to doctors...
11 years ago
So.. yesterday i did some talkign with the doctor... which iv been putting off for quite soem time now cus i hate goign to hospitals because i always end up with bad news. and they smell horrid..
So my docotr was so worried she tried to convinve me to come in tth night but i didnt want too..
so she tried to book me in for monday but ir eally CANNOT miss anymore college with allt he days iv missed and had half days because of effign western grey hound I'm lagging behind plus im struggalign with my course work.
so she finally agrees to see me tuesday at 8 am...
but she seemned like.. worried. and told me to ring the late night urgent no. if i got a fever, start feelign dizzy, feel nauseous, cant eat, any more of ym fingers go numb.. , go super pale, or very red, or sweatign horridly, or cant sweat at all and a few other things... im going.. i get alot of this day to day...? shit am i dyeing? ... o.0
she made it clear i needed to take it easy. but i jsut can't. no money and the holidays are coeming up FAST...
*flails*
she said she's concerned i mgiht have to go back on dyalisis.. if tht happens i cant do my course, and all sorts and depending on what med they'll give me i may even end up bed ridden.
this all ontop of all my financial stress, benefits may be being cut cus i was ill and missed something... so no help over the holidays at effing ALL ... its cold. and its getting colder.
i dotn even own SOCKS ..
i have flip flops, a pair of old high heels my cowboy boots (which hurt without socks) and crappy old trainers iv had sicne i was 16(for my b-day)... im 22 nearly 23
none of my shoes are under 3 years old...
most of my clothes are gettign thred bair and i can only sow them up myself so much...
This vet bill.
travel and course costs.
and i could be earnign moeny RIGHT NOW good moeny too. cus i can start practiceing my massage now.
but i need insurance
oils,
towles
better shoes,
a place or transport
buisness cards and leaflets
a few cosh and H&S reports done professionally
and the correct clothes
its not tht far out fo reach and yet it really is.
dont get me started on my diet.. its probably why im so ill i eat 90% noodles and pasta.
steve's been made redundant... and he wotn ahve a job garunteed for another 6 motnhs
(when he joins the navy)
i jsut.. *flails*
just.. someone hug me..
So my docotr was so worried she tried to convinve me to come in tth night but i didnt want too..
so she tried to book me in for monday but ir eally CANNOT miss anymore college with allt he days iv missed and had half days because of effign western grey hound I'm lagging behind plus im struggalign with my course work.
so she finally agrees to see me tuesday at 8 am...
but she seemned like.. worried. and told me to ring the late night urgent no. if i got a fever, start feelign dizzy, feel nauseous, cant eat, any more of ym fingers go numb.. , go super pale, or very red, or sweatign horridly, or cant sweat at all and a few other things... im going.. i get alot of this day to day...? shit am i dyeing? ... o.0
she made it clear i needed to take it easy. but i jsut can't. no money and the holidays are coeming up FAST...
*flails*
she said she's concerned i mgiht have to go back on dyalisis.. if tht happens i cant do my course, and all sorts and depending on what med they'll give me i may even end up bed ridden.
this all ontop of all my financial stress, benefits may be being cut cus i was ill and missed something... so no help over the holidays at effing ALL ... its cold. and its getting colder.
i dotn even own SOCKS ..
i have flip flops, a pair of old high heels my cowboy boots (which hurt without socks) and crappy old trainers iv had sicne i was 16(for my b-day)... im 22 nearly 23
none of my shoes are under 3 years old...
most of my clothes are gettign thred bair and i can only sow them up myself so much...
This vet bill.
travel and course costs.
and i could be earnign moeny RIGHT NOW good moeny too. cus i can start practiceing my massage now.
but i need insurance
oils,
towles
better shoes,
a place or transport
buisness cards and leaflets
a few cosh and H&S reports done professionally
and the correct clothes
its not tht far out fo reach and yet it really is.
dont get me started on my diet.. its probably why im so ill i eat 90% noodles and pasta.
steve's been made redundant... and he wotn ahve a job garunteed for another 6 motnhs
(when he joins the navy)
i jsut.. *flails*
just.. someone hug me..
im just terrified. and its gettign so cold at ngiht. and the holidays..
i need to be kept warm because of my kidneys and i jsut cant afford the heating.
the idea of it was horrifying.
no we dont have to suffer alone but i wish none had to suffer at all.
and dont worry hun i knwo things are tight for so many people. i just soo wish i could start ym massage buisness. then id have a real job.