So yeah. I was at Chlorine-con as we dubbed it. In all the most fun I had was the MFF hockey game organized by Poomie and PJ-fox. After that I met a few people, worked some con suite, and spent about an hour in the cold without anything but a rather light shirt and blue jeans. I think the thing that will stand out most to me that night was evacuating the hotel and smelling chlorine. I was on the 9th floor at the time, but if I hadn't been in another room I would have likely been one of the people in the hospital. Then I spent a while huddled up to Truegrave, Ket, and a fursuiter I didn't get the name of. We were really damn cold too, when we finally were able to get inside, adrenaline was starting to let go, and the sudden induced sobriety gave way to a very painful hangover.

In my room, after we were all let back in the hotel, was where my mind went from survival mode to full on mental breakdown. Panic attack with pretty much nobody to pull me back. I spent most of the night feeling like I was going to vomit. So much for going back to work at 6am for con suite.

I've tried so hard not to let Sunday morning define my convention, I met some incredible people, and I had a great time at the hockey game. But my mind can be incredibly weak at times, and I always go back to it when I reflect on MFF, or the hockey game. I love MFF though, so I hope I have a better 2015.

I've been a bit sick since I got back from MFF. What troubles me more though is my drinking, I don't think I've had a single night since I came back where I didn't pick up the bottle. I'm pretty sure drinking for depression, especially if it's just PCD, is very unhealthy. If it doesn't stop soon, I think I'll be seeking some help.

On the bright side, I finished all my classes for the semester, I pulled 2 A's and an A-, the latter of which I'm a little disappointed in. Now hopefully I can get through what I'm dubbing the 'doom' semester. I am going in to a stretch of 4 classes a week, each of them very long, limiting my ability to work and pay my bills. I need these courses and if I stop now I'll have to start paying back my loans. Of course, my employer isn't quite opening up the new location for a few months. Hopefully I can transfer to it, and can find a place to live in Kenosha within a short period.

Advice on the living arrangements would be appreciated, the rest of it is just me getting my thoughts out.