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2nd Term as an Actor over. (READ IF YOU LOVE ME!)
11 years ago
Wow I'm already halfway done. These showings were much more fun, as I got to do Improv and Dance in front of an AUDIENCE :D ....ok yes it was just the program kids, but Term 4s get to invite family and friends. So as last time, after the showings, we all had a conference with our profs. And here's what mine had to say:
Mark my voice prof/Physical Acting prof/program co-ordinator started with "How was your semester?" and I replied in one breath because I was a little nervous going into the conference like last time. "Oh it was awesome, a little stressful, but more because my gen. ed was causing the stress if it wasn't for that I would've been fine." Then to make me laugh he was like "ok...now can you say that sentence again, but with breathing?" and I just blushed and said "Whatever Mark!" then he asked "So what do you feel you need to improve on?" and I said "Being more subtle on camera. Practicing more of the vocal exercises so I can be more familiar with them, and not beat myself up so much on the ones I can't do right away-" then he cut me off and was like "Ok, I'm gonna stop you there" and I was like T_T "OH NO!" in my head. He then continued with a bit of a tone "Yea you need to stop beating yourself up. You are an amazing actor and I can't understand why you wanna sit on middle to bottom and not sit on top of the class. I think you figure "Oh I'm young so I'm not good enough" but you are good enough, you have the skill set and you work so hard. So hard. And you've earned your place to be here, so you don't have to prove anything to anyone anymore, and just ignore the negative shit from them because who cares? I love having you in my class you're great! Also you need to stop asking me so many questions because you know the answers and from now on I'm gonna deflect some, and I'll only answer if you really did try to answer them yourself and trust that you know them yourself." As he was saying his speech like every other prof was goin all "mm-hm" T_T
Next was Conrad my Camera Acting Teacher. He said "Can you feel the love in this room? Like are you aware that we all love you?" and I again was blushing and I was like "yeeees" then he continued "Good, because you are loved, and I feel the way you are is because you don't get love somewhere in your life....am I wrong?" honestly he wasn't and I said "kind of" but those thinking it's my family...that's not what part of my life it's missing from. So Conrad nodded and continued "Yea you really are an amazing human being, and this place is our sanctuary." he also told me a story..but i dont remember the point of it T//T "You are passion. And I wanna tell you something, you know that expression "We don't choose the theatre it chooses us"? Well my friend, I believe it chose you. You work really hard, and it shows. Like I could have another 2 semesters with you, I'd love that." So because like...the hottest professor said all that I was like "omg I can die happy now" X//D
Next was my Script-writing professor David, and he said "Yea so Anthony, I'd like to start with your script. You were terrified of writing weren't you?" and I replied "Mortified" and then he continued "Well listen, I read it, and i loved it, and you got a B, but even if I wrote a lot of notes here, it's still a good B, because I wanna tell you something. Your script had the most heart." Then CONRAD BUTTS IN A QUICK "Big fucking surprise eh?" and I was like T//_//T and David continued "and it really says a lot about you" and then he handed it to me and said "It's a good first draft!" Then after Conrad asked me if I could send it to him because he really wanted to read it. T////T
Next was Christopher my Improv prof and he said "Yea Anthony I agree with everyone like A+ for me, you're awesome and you're a really nice guy. Now what I wanna say for you, is your so funny, because you were terrified of improv and you really embraced that fear and went into every scene LITERALLY yelling "I'M TERRIFIED AND I HATE DOING THIS, BUT HERE I GO!" X///D BECAUSE I ACTUALLY DID X'//D and then he continued "And as funny as it was, it's also good you do that, because this is the place to do it, because when you go out there after this program, you shouldn't be. But in here it's required. I also want to tell you, you're Plane scene in the showings today wasn't as good as it was in rehearsal and do you know why?" and I did "Because I was terrified of doing this in front of the audience" and he replied "RIGHT! because in rehearsal, it was groovin. You also need to remember and learn that the audience wants you to succeed, so don't let them scare you."
Last but not least was my Dance/Periods and Styles prof Nicky. She said "I concur with everything that has been said. You really are amazing Anthony, you're SO talented, I still remember your scene from last semester and how fucking awesome it was. May I ask something, is the reason you feel you have to keep proving yourself or whatever is because you feel you wanna be great but are afraid you're not great?" I honestly answered her "That's one" and she then read me a quote that I...don't remember T///T I might just ask her for it. "Like you really are so sweet, and you deal with areas i come short in-" Mark then interrupted her and said "shortcomings?" and she said "OH YES! YES that's it my shortcomings, you deal with them so well, I like forget to do something, and you don't tell me or remind me nastily, you remind me so gently just like "hey Nicky you forgot to do this" and I'm like "oh my God he's so forgiving, I like having him around." like trust yourself, and I know you hate hearing this but this is gonna come with time, and really haha I know you hate hearing it's gonna take time which is the irony of it but it is true. Lastly wow you did some beautiful periods pieces, I loved your Commedia D'ell Arte when you straddled that table SO FUNNY. Which was funny despite how nervous you were doing it at first. Oh and for dance, I wasn't sure about you doing a solo but after i saw how adamant you were and I was like "oohh confidence" and when I saw you do it, I was so proud Robin Hood came through! HAHA" XD BITCH SAID THAT BECAUSE I WAS DRESSED LIKE LINK, BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE A WARRIOR, BUT I HAD NO OTHER COSTUME SO THE WEEK BEFORE SHOWINGS SHE CALLED ME ROBIN HOOD XD SO SHE KNEW I WAS LINK- KIND OF, BUT SHE WAS BEIN A BITCH XD. THEN OMG, CHRISTOPHER WAS LIKE "OH that wasn't Robin Hood, that was Peter Pan right?" AND I WAS LIKE "NOOOOOO!!!" and we all started laughing and I was like "YOU CAN ALL GO TO HELL X'D" and that was it.
Overall...holy shit, the love and faith, they have in me. I'm really lucky to have such awesome people teach me. And I can't wait for Term 3!!!!
Hope you enjoyed reading this! ^^ next journal will be my report card when it comes <3
Mark my voice prof/Physical Acting prof/program co-ordinator started with "How was your semester?" and I replied in one breath because I was a little nervous going into the conference like last time. "Oh it was awesome, a little stressful, but more because my gen. ed was causing the stress if it wasn't for that I would've been fine." Then to make me laugh he was like "ok...now can you say that sentence again, but with breathing?" and I just blushed and said "Whatever Mark!" then he asked "So what do you feel you need to improve on?" and I said "Being more subtle on camera. Practicing more of the vocal exercises so I can be more familiar with them, and not beat myself up so much on the ones I can't do right away-" then he cut me off and was like "Ok, I'm gonna stop you there" and I was like T_T "OH NO!" in my head. He then continued with a bit of a tone "Yea you need to stop beating yourself up. You are an amazing actor and I can't understand why you wanna sit on middle to bottom and not sit on top of the class. I think you figure "Oh I'm young so I'm not good enough" but you are good enough, you have the skill set and you work so hard. So hard. And you've earned your place to be here, so you don't have to prove anything to anyone anymore, and just ignore the negative shit from them because who cares? I love having you in my class you're great! Also you need to stop asking me so many questions because you know the answers and from now on I'm gonna deflect some, and I'll only answer if you really did try to answer them yourself and trust that you know them yourself." As he was saying his speech like every other prof was goin all "mm-hm" T_T
Next was Conrad my Camera Acting Teacher. He said "Can you feel the love in this room? Like are you aware that we all love you?" and I again was blushing and I was like "yeeees" then he continued "Good, because you are loved, and I feel the way you are is because you don't get love somewhere in your life....am I wrong?" honestly he wasn't and I said "kind of" but those thinking it's my family...that's not what part of my life it's missing from. So Conrad nodded and continued "Yea you really are an amazing human being, and this place is our sanctuary." he also told me a story..but i dont remember the point of it T//T "You are passion. And I wanna tell you something, you know that expression "We don't choose the theatre it chooses us"? Well my friend, I believe it chose you. You work really hard, and it shows. Like I could have another 2 semesters with you, I'd love that." So because like...the hottest professor said all that I was like "omg I can die happy now" X//D
Next was my Script-writing professor David, and he said "Yea so Anthony, I'd like to start with your script. You were terrified of writing weren't you?" and I replied "Mortified" and then he continued "Well listen, I read it, and i loved it, and you got a B, but even if I wrote a lot of notes here, it's still a good B, because I wanna tell you something. Your script had the most heart." Then CONRAD BUTTS IN A QUICK "Big fucking surprise eh?" and I was like T//_//T and David continued "and it really says a lot about you" and then he handed it to me and said "It's a good first draft!" Then after Conrad asked me if I could send it to him because he really wanted to read it. T////T
Next was Christopher my Improv prof and he said "Yea Anthony I agree with everyone like A+ for me, you're awesome and you're a really nice guy. Now what I wanna say for you, is your so funny, because you were terrified of improv and you really embraced that fear and went into every scene LITERALLY yelling "I'M TERRIFIED AND I HATE DOING THIS, BUT HERE I GO!" X///D BECAUSE I ACTUALLY DID X'//D and then he continued "And as funny as it was, it's also good you do that, because this is the place to do it, because when you go out there after this program, you shouldn't be. But in here it's required. I also want to tell you, you're Plane scene in the showings today wasn't as good as it was in rehearsal and do you know why?" and I did "Because I was terrified of doing this in front of the audience" and he replied "RIGHT! because in rehearsal, it was groovin. You also need to remember and learn that the audience wants you to succeed, so don't let them scare you."
Last but not least was my Dance/Periods and Styles prof Nicky. She said "I concur with everything that has been said. You really are amazing Anthony, you're SO talented, I still remember your scene from last semester and how fucking awesome it was. May I ask something, is the reason you feel you have to keep proving yourself or whatever is because you feel you wanna be great but are afraid you're not great?" I honestly answered her "That's one" and she then read me a quote that I...don't remember T///T I might just ask her for it. "Like you really are so sweet, and you deal with areas i come short in-" Mark then interrupted her and said "shortcomings?" and she said "OH YES! YES that's it my shortcomings, you deal with them so well, I like forget to do something, and you don't tell me or remind me nastily, you remind me so gently just like "hey Nicky you forgot to do this" and I'm like "oh my God he's so forgiving, I like having him around." like trust yourself, and I know you hate hearing this but this is gonna come with time, and really haha I know you hate hearing it's gonna take time which is the irony of it but it is true. Lastly wow you did some beautiful periods pieces, I loved your Commedia D'ell Arte when you straddled that table SO FUNNY. Which was funny despite how nervous you were doing it at first. Oh and for dance, I wasn't sure about you doing a solo but after i saw how adamant you were and I was like "oohh confidence" and when I saw you do it, I was so proud Robin Hood came through! HAHA" XD BITCH SAID THAT BECAUSE I WAS DRESSED LIKE LINK, BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE A WARRIOR, BUT I HAD NO OTHER COSTUME SO THE WEEK BEFORE SHOWINGS SHE CALLED ME ROBIN HOOD XD SO SHE KNEW I WAS LINK- KIND OF, BUT SHE WAS BEIN A BITCH XD. THEN OMG, CHRISTOPHER WAS LIKE "OH that wasn't Robin Hood, that was Peter Pan right?" AND I WAS LIKE "NOOOOOO!!!" and we all started laughing and I was like "YOU CAN ALL GO TO HELL X'D" and that was it.
Overall...holy shit, the love and faith, they have in me. I'm really lucky to have such awesome people teach me. And I can't wait for Term 3!!!!
Hope you enjoyed reading this! ^^ next journal will be my report card when it comes <3
Babytiger1099
~babytiger1099
really glad to hear you're having a good time following your dream big brother!
Azuri Foxcoon
~pawluvr
OP
Thanks little brother but besides just following my dream...like I have these professionals telling me I'm outstanding so it's not just about having a good time following my dream (although I am) it's also about how these professionals really must see something. And if they do...well maybe the rest of the industry might too.
