I'm not okay, and I haven't been for a long time. I'm scared, I'm stressed, and I've been avoiding my problems- problems that are entirely my fault- which just get worse by the day. It frightens me that the year is almost over, that time moves on even though I've been stagnant. I know I should at least attempt to fix these problems, or at least find some sort of closure for them, but I'm not brave enough to do that. And so things are just gonna get worse.
I can't talk to people about my problems, because I'm too ashamed of them. I don't even want to talk with people, because I'm afraid they'll want to know how my life is going, or I'm afraid to hear that they're growing while I'm deteriorating.
Sorry for being vague, but I'm writing this more for myself than anything. I don't really want replies to this, just the fact that you read this helps me- so thank you.